Thanks, I'll take that compliment even though you strongly disagree with me.
Let's just say I identify with Alya's turmoil because I know the feeling, and know others who've felt similarly. It can easily lead into a downward spiral and all kinds of self-destructive behaviour which is later deeply regretted (I hasten to add I'm not talking criminal behaviour here).
I have to say I'm not quite so convinced by the acting though!