Bloody hell Kirsty, you're a workaholic!
Not everybody is cut out for formal qualifications and its not easy to figure out what you want to do with life. Do you still want to be a speech therapist? Perhaps it would be a good idea to think seriously about what you want out of life and why you are doing your course at the moment. You seemed so happy when you started it. Dropping out of college is a difficult decision but if you're already dreading going back then maybe it's not the right path for you. Could you make a full time job out of one or both jobs that you have now? Would you be happy to do one or both for the foreseeable future or would you get bored eventually? If you finished the course, would the qualification give you a better chance of getting a good job?
I've been in my job since Friday now. Today was the first day I actually enjoyed it. I talked to my boss quite a bit today and he's actually a decent guy. The majority of the female clerical staff seem to look down their noses at me and don't say anything, its as if I'm just the lowly cleaner. The male managers and the fitters are always friendly though and will say hi and pass the time of day. One of the sales managers actually had a ten minute conversation with me, asking what I was doing and what I wanted to do after uni. He then got the number for the hospital mortuary manager from his previous company so I can get some work experience! This is a guy who I've never met and only knows what I told him about myself in those ten minutes. I was touched that a stranger could see my passion and go out of his way to do something to help. He text me last night to say good luck and he hopes he helped because I deserve it.
My body is in a really bad way thoughI'm laid in bed in pain from standing and walking around since 8am. To add to the pain, I can't sleep at the moment. I don't know if its because subconsciously I'm worried about oversleeping and being late for work or if I'm having another phase of insomnia.
Anywho, back to uni next weekendI won't have internet in the house for a few weeks so it'll be trips to the library, which luckily is only two minutes' walk. Final year, it's gone so quick. I don't want it to end.