I didn't know of the sadness and tragedy in your family, and I think that it says a lot about you that you are not bitter.
Your big heart is obvious in your posts, and the fact that you care for people you haven't even met on these boards.
I really admire you as someone whose glass is half full, and who knows what is important in life.
I love musicals too, but sci fi wins out - Live Long and Prosper!