Depression

[Abigail]

thanks guys.

felt a bit better but i've come back down again today.
specially since ive come home.
I'm alone and i suppose thats when i'm most dangerous.
i tried to purge and when i couldnt i started to cry.

i dont think that bein ill with a really bad cold doesn't help and the fact my drama GCSE is on friday is adding to the stress.
i feel so weak and helpless.
just want to go to sleep.

Please go see your doctor or talk to someone. If you can't explain how you feel, write it down.

[freckleface]

thanks guys.

felt a bit better but i've come back down again today.
specially since ive come home.
I'm alone and i suppose thats when i'm most dangerous.
i tried to purge and when i couldnt i started to cry.

i dont think that bein ill with a really bad cold doesn't help and the fact my drama GCSE is on friday is adding to the stress.
i feel so weak and helpless.
just want to go to sleep.

Please go see your doctor or talk to someone. If you can't explain how you feel, write it down.

I cant.
Theyll try and lock me up somewhere.
My mum thinks I'm doing it for attention. She doesnt understand.
She sees me as a failure for a daughter.
and she's right.

[Abigail]

People are only sectioned in extreme cases where they present a considerable danger to themselves or others. It's not a decision made by just one person, at least two doctors have to agree that its in your best interests.

You don't need your parents consent to speak to a doctor alone and the doctor can only tell them if he thinks you don't understand the treatment he's offering or you pose a serious risk to yourself.

Why do you think you're a failure?

[freckleface]

i know i am.
all my friends are more pretty, better, cleverer than me.
im selfish and never think about anyone else.
i dont want to speak to my daughter because my mums friend works there and she would see me there.

[Perdita]

I am sure you are just as pretty as any other girls, you are very clever with signatures on here, I can't even do them myself, so you are better and cleverer than me in this respect. We can't all be good at the same things, that is how we can learn from each other Why are you concerned about your mum's friend that you don't want to speak to your daughter?

[freckleface]

lol.

im feeling a bit better but really stuffed up with a cold



suppose that dont help me.

[Abigail]

I went to the doctors this morning. I scored highly on the questionnaire so he prescribed me citalopram. Go back in two weeks but it could take up to six weeks to feel any benefit.

The doctor was great, not like the others that I've seen at the practice, so I'll just see him from now on.

[Tori]

I went to the doctors this morning. I scored highly on the questionnaire so he prescribed me citalopram. Go back in two weeks but it could take up to six weeks to feel any benefit.

The doctor was great, not like the others that I've seen at the practice, so I'll just see him from now on.

Good luck with citalopram, I'm on it and it's helped a lot. There *may* be side effects but don't worry- they do go away.

I'd also advise you keep seeing the same doctor, as they'll get to know you better and know how you act and stuff; mine knows me so well that she knows if I say something like "I'm okay" then she should be worried....

Keep seeing him regularly too, it's really important in case you have a bad reaction (but you already probably knew!).

Good luck, and if you have any citalopram related questions just ask (or pm me )

[Abigail]

I went to the doctors this morning. I scored highly on the questionnaire so he prescribed me citalopram. Go back in two weeks but it could take up to six weeks to feel any benefit.

The doctor was great, not like the others that I've seen at the practice, so I'll just see him from now on.

Good luck with citalopram, I'm on it and it's helped a lot. There *may* be side effects but don't worry- they do go away.

I'd also advise you keep seeing the same doctor, as they'll get to know you better and know how you act and stuff; mine knows me so well that she knows if I say something like "I'm okay" then she should be worried....

Keep seeing him regularly too, it's really important in case you have a bad reaction (but you already probably knew!).

Good luck, and if you have any citalopram related questions just ask (or pm me )

Thank you I actually feel worse now that I have a diagnosis and medication than I did this morning.

What's the best way to take it? I haven't had anything to eat this morning and I'm feeling really light headed and dizzy (took 10mg an hour ago, increase to 20mg next week). Is it better at bed time to help sleep or in the morning?

I'm struggling with what to tell my tutor. I'm supposed to be in a lab session but I just can't face talking to people. "I don't want to talk to people" isn't a good excuse. I'm actually finding it a huge problem to move from my current position on the chair so I've got no hope of going to my afternoon lecture.

Sorry for the long rant. I haven't experienced apathy towards education on this level before. Procrastination yes but distinct and severe lack of motivation is alien.

I will try to see the same doctor but he only works on a Tuesday morning. My doctors is an outreach student service so they only have one doctor on per surgery and each doctor only does one surgery per week. The main practice is about five miles away.

[Tori]

Unfortunately that can happen- putting a name to it makes it worse!

I've always been advised to take it in the morning, to take it at a similarish kind of time and I would probably take it with food; I always eat in the morning anyway, so I've not had much experience of taking it without food buuuut on occasion if I'm hungry then it isn't a pleasant experience! I would be surprised if they were giving you side effects already, but then again I had something like that and people told me that it couldn't be true!

Tell your tutor that you're struggling a bit at the moment, and have been diagnosed with depression, you don't have to tell them any more than that, but that's basically what I told mine and they were okay about it. If you don't mind me asking, how long has it been going on for?

Don't worry about ranting; I don't mind

Wow, that doctors system sounds really complicated. Not entirely sure I understand it, but hopefully you'll be able to see him again!