Depression

[Tori]

I felt like that for ages too, but I did nothing about it. I'd say that it may be best to go, as your doctor may have some ideas about help/support and stuff... Just don't let it go too far, or you'll end up like me (and that ISN'T good : )

Hope you feel better soon

[Chloe O'brien]

Is there a student counselling service at the college Kirsty maybe you could speak to one of the advisors there and have a chat with them. Sometimes it's easier to talk to a stranger than it is to family members. Don't bottle it up and feel ashamed because that will make you feel worse. Go for a walk up a big hill and scream until your horse. Hope you feel better soon we are all here for you.

[Kirsty :]]

There is, but that's the last place I want to go. I was feeling slightly better, and I'm getting a cold... so now I just feel bad again. I need my friends, and they don't want to know. Went out to the pub for a catch up earlier, it was awful, I was ignored, and dismissed, and interrupted, I just felt so out of place. Like because I didn't go to Uni, I wasn't worthy enough to talk lol.
Walking home with 2 of my friends, and the girl didn't go to Uni either but the guy did, and he said to me about my "depressing emo" status' on Facebook lately, and I think Jade (my other friend) hit the nail on the head about why I'm so down, because she said I sound lonely.. and I am. I am completely lonely, that's how I feel anyways.

Thinking about how sooo much changed in such a short space of time, and losing my friends to Uni, I had no-one to let out my fears or worries too, so I've only had myself, which ends up in me winding myself up even more about things and thinking the worst of myself.

[freckleface]

I haven't been diagnosed with depression. But I know something is wrong with me
Some days I'm okay, then on other days i feel like i'm stuck in a really dark place.
I'm really snappy with my friends and family for no reason.
I can't help it but i feel so down and alone, like no-one can help me.

I can't tell my mum, she thinks i'm over-exaggerating.
And depression would just top it off. I have so many things wrong with me I dont think I can cope.

i wish I could just be normal and not feel so unstable

[Perdita]

Have you recently started college/university? If so, I can imagine that all the changes you are going through must be unsettling.. leaving home, family and friends you have grown up with over the past years. You are normal, there is no doubt in my mind, just going through a period of changes. Hope you feel better soon xx

[freckleface]

I'm 15. still in secondary school.

[Perdita]

I'm 15. still in secondary school.

Then you will be stressed out getting good marks for your exams next year or so. Also, you are turning into a young woman and your hormones will be all over the place. I remember feeling out of place when I was 15 and I am sure others on here will remember that feeling too. There are so many pressures on young people and everybody copes a bit different. You are not alone in the way you are feeling, I am sure. ((((f)))) Big hug for freckleface

[Abigail]

I'm 15. still in secondary school.

I remember feeling like you do in my early to mid teens. It got so much worse during winter with the short days that it was unbearable at times. Talking to someone really helped me. It doesn't really matter who it is, friend, teacher, school counsellor, family member etc. The important thing is that you don't keep what you're feeling to yourself.

I was diagnosed with a few serious long term illnesses when I was 15/16 so I do know what it's like to feel as if you can't do X, Y and Z or people don't get what you're feeling. I found a teacher who I really trusted and who I could talk to about what I was feeling. It wasn't easy (I'm a closed book) and it took a long time but he gave me the time to explain what I was thinking and feeling in my own way, which was anything from ten minutes to a whole day. Teachers aren't just taught how to plan lessons, teach and mark books. They're also pretty good at helping kids in need.

Feel free to pm me if you wish to talk more

[freckleface]

thanks guys.

felt a bit better but i've come back down again today.
specially since ive come home.
I'm alone and i suppose thats when i'm most dangerous.
i tried to purge and when i couldnt i started to cry.

i dont think that bein ill with a really bad cold doesn't help and the fact my drama GCSE is on friday is adding to the stress.
i feel so weak and helpless.
just want to go to sleep.

[Siobhan]

I was constantly depressed in my teens.. I was a fat awkward child and always but on this happy exterior but inside I was so depressed. It took me ages and ages but I got self confidence and it dramatically improved my life.