How Was Your Day? VII

[Perdita]

Have a great time, parkerman

[Chloe O'brien]

Have a lovely holiday Parkerman, Don't forget the duty free.

[parkerman]

Have a lovely holiday Parkerman, Don't forget the duty free.

As if....

[moonstorm]

Have a great time Parkerman, don't forget the suncream!!

[Abigail]

Hope you're having a good time Parkerman. Don't forget to send us a postcard.

[Abigail]

I didn't get the job. I wasn't expecting to, everybody else was far more qualified than me. There were 107 applicants and I got down to the final 12, so I didn't do bad. I was a bit upset that they said I didn't appear to know what I want. I've been thinking about it today and I actually think they're right, I don't know what I want. I've been all over the place this past month. I've seen another job advertised, same company different site, testing explosives. It's more related to my degree so I'm going to apply.

In other news, I handed my dissertation in yesterday. I didn't feel the sense of relief that I probably should have done because I still have a massive pile of work to get through. I worked out when I finish my degree though. I have an exams on the 3rd and 6th May then a court appearance on the 16th and that's it. Finished. My lectures finish 7th April which isn't far away.

I've decided I'm not going to my graduation. My mum really wants to go but I don't want her there. She never wanted me to go to university in the first place, she told me I would fail and I would never graduate so I find it hypocritical that she wants to come to my graduation because she's "proud of me." I want my sister to go but I just can't deal with the fallout from not inviting my mum. I'm hardly talking to her at the moment anyway. Our relationship has really deteriorated over the past year and I've now reached the point where I can't deal with her behaviour any more. I never know what mood she's going to be in when I ring or go to her house, my parents don't talk about anything except my nephew which annoys the hell out of me when I try to talk to them about what's going on in my world. It's very easy for Victim Support to say I should cut her some slack but they didn't have to cope with a manipulative, often aggressive mother who was never there growing up. I dunno. Sometimes it's easier for me to imagine she's not a part of my life. She's said so many hurtful things, I spend half my life trying to prove her wrong but it's never good enough for her. She just chooses another angle to belittle me on.

[Perdita]

Well done, Abigail, for getting the interview, to be chosen among 11 others from 107 applicants is a great achievement, even if you did not get the job in the end. Seems only like yesterday I remember you talking on here about going off to uni and now you are talking about your dissertation and graduation, another brilliant achievement
Sorry about the family situation but maybe you should go to your graduation though, say good-bye to your tutors, friends and chapter in your life, you might regret it later if you don't.

[layla]

Well done Abigail. sound like you have worked really hard at uni. I wish you lots of luck for your next interview.

You should not let your Mother stop you from going to your Graduation with your sister. You have worked hard. She is probably jealous of you life. If you are hardly talking to her now it cannot get much worse. If she falls out with you. she will soon forget and make friend again. I had a up, down relationship with my Mother as long as I can remember. Your Mother sound similar to mine. No mater what happened she would never apologise for anything wrong she did to my sister and I. We would fall out for months then make friends, She never had much time for me or my sister. Our brother on the other hand could never do no wrong. Yet it was me who looked after her, when she got old.
Live your life for you and not for your Mother. Have a happy life. I have with my husband and children who I adore.

[Dazzle]

Well done for doing so well at your interview, Abigail, and good luck for the next one.

I'm another one who's had a terrible relationship with my mother for most of my life. Now that I'm 40, we've finally come to understand and appreciate each other more and have a good relationship, so there's hope for you and your mother yet.

[DaVeyWaVey]

I really need to get a job. £10 a week budget isn't that much fun... and the people from downstairs have just spent their time moaning at me over the amount of people I've slept with over the past couple of months. "Dave, none of your relationships last more than a week" "Dave, you've slept with everyone" "Dave, you slept with him but did you even know his name? Have you spoken to him since?" I've slept with a handful of people since September, hardly loads... and what they say is really inaccurate and not true. I just feel like people are judging me and it's boring.