I would go back to the year 1965 and tell Brian Wilson not to write California Girls, why? it brings back very traumatic memories for me , I won't broadcast it here. all I can say is I used to wake up screaming, crying, and have the most terrifying flashbacks, my parents did all they could to help me. Years later I found support and help through counselling and specialist online help too, my road to recovery is a long one, but I will get there.