I'm dreading going back to school on Monday. Can't seem to concentrate and i'm not just saying that cause i don't wnat to revise but i really can't.
I hope get this counselling session quite soon cause i really need someone who doesn't know me to talk to. Cause i'm bottling all my feelings up and i don't think i can hold them any longer so they'll either come out in anger or tears. Don't want them to come out in either
I know i've said this before but for real it's just starting to hit me that i won't get to see Alyson anymore and it hurts. And i think everyone may be getting sick and tired of me going on about her. I think what really hurts the most is the fact that i didn't get to say a proper goodbye. I have so many why questions that can't be answered and i know it's pointless to have them but i can't help it. So now i keep on listening to On Eagle's Wings. Which was one of the hymns that was played at her mass the school organised for her in which i helped. Hoping i could cry cause i really need to.
Tad bit of rambling going on there.