Printable View
Sam is supposed to be staying at mine tonght but he hasn't made it back :hmm: No sure if I should wait up for him or let him sleep outside or at some other lass's place. He's really drunk and can't understand where I am, even though he's known for the past six months where I'm living.
Oh well, not my fault if its cold outside tonight.
i was meant to back yesterday but we had a change of plan i came home to wathc the football (which we were robbed) after the 24 hour race, we had very good result but i am very tired now. I did the shift sailing at 2 till 4 in the morning.
Another early start with the train going back to bangor at 6 tomorrow morning!
Im quite looking forward to going back and this weekend has been amazing!
Did Sam sleep outside after Abigail?
omg 2 til 4.. Katy are you crazy!? haha
Just had work 12-7 todfay but it was quiet so I was allowed to go at 6:5 instead :) feeling slightly better about everything lately.
I'm getting into the whole slimming world thing and depsite a bad week I lost 3lbs.. I need to keep it up now and stop messing around though if I'm going to keep going!
College is ok too... don't really liek the way one tutor teaches, but I just research myself so that I gain better knowledge,
And I've made the decision to leave dancing at the end of the month, I was going to trial my workload and see if I can cope, but its just best if I leave. I've been dancing since I was 5, and I love it.. but I just feel like the doors to that era have closed and it's time to move on, focus on my studies alot more, so that I can have a good career in the future. It will be sad... but they won't get rid of me for long because as soon as my sister is old enough I'm signing her up :) she may like it.. she may not, but it's always nice to try something, I'm glad I was signed up when I was 5 :)
I'm feeling really philosophical tonight ahah
I was rather drunk when I wrote that post :p He made is back at about 4am, we talked for a bit then had a few hours sleep. I set the fire alarm off at 8am :ninja: Stupid toaster.
Sam went to church, I went back to bed then we went into Hanley to Spoons. Food was awful :sick: Didn't drink anything as I still felt rough after last night's heavy sesh.
All I want now is my bed.
I'm sharing a flat with three other people, one lass has moved her stuff in and left before I got here and another moved in yesterday. Not seen the third girl. I'm thrilled to bits to be living with three girls :rolleyes: There was a reason I was moving in with two guys. Justine seems ok. My bathroom is huge compared to her's.
My room is on the end of the block, sideways on to a housing estate. The kids are really pissing me off because they keep kicking a football at the wall and window. There's a perfectly good grassed playing area on the other side of the road and the park 10 seconds away. Tw*ts.
Not been a bad day. Fairly ordinary... 4 days til uni almost.. i desperately want to go now. I've been soo bored.. I feel like I'm ready to move on with my life :)
But because I am so excited for uni, I've started getting really paranoid like what if I go and they said there was a mistake and there wasn't a place for me after all :ninja: I want to get there so I stop feeling so paranoid! But 4 more days to get through!
I really do hate kids. Seriously, do they have to kick a football at my wall repeatedly for half an hour??
Had a rubbish day. Woke up feeling sick and really down. I was talking to Sam last night and started crying so he offered the most useless advice. "Plan something and do it." That doesn't help my situation. He doesn't help my situation and I hate it because he's the best friend I've had. I know I need to make my own way but he offers me so much security that I feel I'm pushing him away when I need him.
He rang earlier to check on me, which was really sweet but I kinda didn't want to talk to him. It always feels like I run back to him when I get scared or something happens and I don't want to do that. I know exactly why I'm doing it but I just can't help myself.
*Sighs*
Anyway, I'm changing course. As per usual I had to see half a dozen people to get one sheet of paper :rolleyes: Disorganisation is this universities middle name.
Davey, keep yourself busy, time will fly by :) which Uni are you going to again?
Abigail, I really hope you feel better soon :)
Had a good day at College :) I feel kind of on top of it at the moment which I'm loving.. but I don't want to get too happy about it just incase I lose it, and fall behind. The only down part is that i don't really feel like I'm clicking with many people, which I don't usually find difficult to do, maybe it's the age? I don't know.. or maybe I'm just focused on my studies this year.
Had to buy a new wiper today as my car goes for MOT tomorrow.. I am sooo hoping it passes, but I don't think it will. I got some T-Cut too for the big scratch in my car :( I didn't know how to do it though, so when I got home from College, Adam offered to have a go for me, so I took the car over but it was going to take hours to do, so I told him not to worry and that I'd do it myself in the week.
I've been fine all week without him at work, out of sight out of mind and all that, and it's all gone down the pan again. I understood and appreciated that he didn;t want anything serious, and never did, but I wish he would appreciate that i'm finding it very difficult to just "be his friend". I think I've come to the decision that I can't be his friend, it's not what I want.. and he got what he wanted, so now it's my turn. Though I don't think it would bother him in the slightest.. just as the last 4 months haven't, I think I need to do it for my own good. I've thought about his needs and wants too much lately, I need to start thinking of myself now (as selfish as that sounds) and the only way to do this is to look for a new job, and also to keep him as my boss... nothing else.
Kirsty, its a shame you feel you have to look for another job because of him. Men can be pigs when it comes to women.
Is there any way you can have different shifts so you won't see him as much?
We'll be closed soon anyways, but I do need to get away from him, or I'll never get over him, and that'll end up in me looking and sounding like a complete plonker all the time.
He's assistant manager, and hegets 2 days off out of 7... so I'm constantly working with him.
His friend was telling me the other day how heartless he can be, but that he is in an awkward situation and has alot on his plate at the moment.... but what? He never tells or really told me anything. I can't read minds.
Did my first shift on my own today, it was a little scary but it was good being on my own :D
Ive also been shopping and got stuff for uni :D Im excited BUT worried about the people now