Writing a letter to my father has helped me, which is similar to what Perdita suggested.
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Writing a letter to my father has helped me, which is similar to what Perdita suggested.
Yeah, that can work too
I've wrote a latter to Steph and think I'm going to write another one when i get home if ihave enough time.
Hope it helps, Tannie :)
I went to Glasgow on Saturday spent the whole day wondering the Braehead Shopping centre. When Marley was at school camp in November there was another school there and she has kept in touch with some of the other kids. They live near the Braehead Centre and often go there. Marley asked me to take her through so she could spend the day with them. She went to the cinema, bowling and gaming and I got lost in Primark. Yesterday spent the day doing housework.
Thanks Kath. It wasn't that great to be honest, I had an exam to revise for the next day and school was snowed off so I didn't even get to see my friends. I had two cakes though, which my parents clearly thought were nice too as they were having sneaky slices of them when I was at school :lol:Quote:
Originally Posted by Chloe O'brien
I have so much homework to do I don't know which piece to do first. I don't feel that well either. Felt sick when I got to school as well as someone threw up on the bus. We weren't even half way there when it happened and it stank!
Score! Just got a whole tray of Strawberry bio yogurts from Miller reps.. came into the building and gave a load away free!
Lucky you, enjoy :D
I've had a busy day. My life is so hectic at the moment, I don't even know what day it is. This morning I had a lecture, then continued working on the new constitution, followed by two disciplinaries which I sat on, accepting nomination forms for the elections in a few weeks and finally a meeting at 6pm.
I'm doing as much as I can at the moment; I'm not looking forward to the inevitable change in the union's direction next year. It will certainly be a shock, whoever wins the elections. It's certainly going to be an interesting few weeks :D
Tomorrow I have two lectures and I'm also delivering candidate training in the evening. I'm trying to think of ways to get my new slogan - stop complaining, start campaigning - into the training in a non-confrontational way.
Half a bottle of red Kumala, the night is good, even if I'm not going out.
Someone zap me somewhere completely desserted for a week please :D I am so fed up this week.. hardley know why either!
Is there anyone I can PM about friend problems? Just it's got other stuff in it and I don't really want to post on the main forum... :)
You know I am here for you whenever Tannie. Well I hope you do. You can PM me :) xxx
I am here for you too :)
I am not a very happy bunny! To make this story shorter one of my mates is taking one of my mates and her ex mate to court and i've just recieved a text from the mate being taken to court and she know's that i won't allow her bad mouthing my mate in front of me. It is a stupid reason but Aimee's my best mate and i don't want to get involved. Let's just say the text message had a lot of ******* in it. I am ready to explode I just want to curl up and cry. It's like I'm not allowed to have a life nowadays or my own problems. I need to be there to fix Amy's, don't think so somehow! Arghhhhh.
Rant over. That may confuse you and there is two Amy/Aimee :P but yeah sick and tired of it.:crying:
I hope the rant helped, Tannie. Sorry to hear that you're having such a hard time of it at the moment. Can you be upfront with your friends and tell them you've got problems too?
Just read some bad news about one of my friend's, I really wish i could get in contact with her now. Heading to my gran's in a bit and her Neice's daughter is currently on a ventilator and we don't know how long she has to live. I hope if she has passed away that she's pased away peacefully in her sleep. I all of a sudden feel like I've just found out Steph's gone and I don't want to feel like this I need to be strong, but I have no will power to be strong :crying:
I am so sorry about the sad news, Tannie, here for you if you want to discuss anything. BIG HUG xxx
Why do you feel like you need to be strong, Tannie? It's ok to be griefstricken - it's normal. You don't need to feel bad about it.
Tannie I'm sorry to hear your having such a sh1t time of it lately. You have had so much to deal with over the last few months no wonder your in bits. I know it's an old cliche but you need to give yourself time to grieve for Steff and Alison. There is no manual or rule written that it should only take x amount of time to grieve for someone. As for your firends who have the court issues. If you weren't a witness to the problem don't get involved. If either parties want to rant to you. Take it with a pinch of salt don't repeat what they have said. Let them argue amongst themselves because if you get tangled up with the he-said-she-said fiasco you will be made out as the bad one. Let them get on with it. Think of yourself for once and remember you have hundred's of friends on here who will lend an ear to listen and a shoulder to cry on. whenever you want it. Don't ever forget that.
I was right Joanne passed away on Tuesday, Least she's no longer in any pain. I know I need time to grieve but I just feel like I can't for some reason :crying:. Yeah I know Kath I've told them both that and Amy's finally decided she doesn't want to know me and to be honest I don't care cause I've got other thing's to worry about. I feel like all I do when I come on here is complain :( I'm sorry (and I know I'm going to be told there's no need to be sorry) But for some reason I can't rememeber a time when i posted something happy in here. I think I just need the world to stop and let me grieve and for me not to be questioned about it, or anything. That'll never happen either. Thanks for the advice guys :D Much appreciated.
god i havent posted in this thread for ages! had quite an eventful few weeks
went to doctors to try and get onto anti depressants but he really wouldnt let me so there was a big ho-hah about that, i got a second opinion and they said the same, so i ended up moving surgeries...nightmare!
uni and work are getting really stressful atm, its the last 6 weeks or so of my degree so it's all getting to me atm. i cant wait for the easter break so i can slow down a bit and finish off all my work. just got a mark back for a presentation i did 59/100 which im fuming about, i did everything that was asked and pulled off a good presentation, everyone in my class said it was good, yet we got a low mark compared to everyone else, when ours was as good as the rest. the pair that got 71 went over by 10 minutes from the amount of time we were allowed to do, how is that fair?
anyways ive got a date when I go home over easter, can't wait! meet him off Gaydar, which is like a gay dating website, it's usually really infamous for attracting the wrong sorts of people who are after one thing, but he's a really lovely person and we already get on really well. I think we both know that the dates going to go well and stuff, so hopefully i can come back soon with more exciting news about that! that alone has put a smile on my face and made all my other problems seem not so important anymore :)
Bryan, maybe you don't need anti-depressants, you are stressed out because of your degree and maybe that is why you did not get anything from the first surgery you went to. Perhaps there are other ways for you to feel different to the way you do.
Hopefully, the Easter break will provide you with the chill-out time you need.
Good luck with your date :D xx
Omg Bryan that's so unfair, I thought you could lose 10% of the marks or something by running over by 10 minutes.
I'm also fuming about my results as they're lower than predicted but everyone's getting angred by me being upset because they did worse than me. Some of them hardly picked up a book for the whole of the Christmas holidays or January so they're asking for it really, but I worked harder than I've ever worked in my life :crying: I'm now ONE stupid mark off of an A in Economics over the three units we've done so far. One of the teachers was supportive another was just putting even more of a downer on it :angry::angry:
So far today I've took 2 Panic Attacks, (My Pc Passport teacher just can't handle me), Couldn't concentrate thought i was going to faint, and My laptop won't charge so on my mum's laptop. I'm sitting here trying to grieve Steph properly and all I want to do now is cry my heart out but I don't. The good part is I get my phone back tomorrow :D! And think I'm having a girly night round my mate's house :D
Working at home today, have really bad cold.. My partner got bad news about a friend of his so had to fly out to Germany this weekend so have the kids to myself.. they have plans for me for mother's day.. not sure what they are but last year I got tea made from the hot tap and soggy crackers.. had to pretend it was a gormet meal :lol:
It's been a while since I've posted properly.
The last week has been really stressful. I can't go into details as the police are investigating but my family has been ripped apart. I'm shocked at the behaviour of some people but I've realised that there's nothing I can do about the situation.
Last weekend my mum organised a family meal and deliberately didn't invite me :angry: She made up excuses to my sisters as to why I wasn't there but she didn't even ask me.
I've applied for some work experience at a mortuary :D I'm hoping I get it. I've also maybe found a place to do a masters although it depends on if I pass my driving test and how much money I have when I finish my degree.
I've failed a module which means I'll be trailing credits next year. I haven't been to the lab sessions and there's no way I can pass it now.
This week we've got elections so we'll find out on Friday who our new officer team is for the next academic year. Its very tight this year and its going to be interesting.
I haven't been on here for a while, have had a hectic but good few weeks! :)
Made a few new friends so I've been out alot more, it's nice to just chill out sometimes though! :)
Gained an interest or 2.. but I don't feel the same, there is 1 guy at the moment though, he's lovely, and he says he finds me enticing, but he has a girlfriend, and I would never break up a happy relationship.
Never mind, I've focused on myself alot more recently and it's done me so much good, College is going okay again, my Maitre D' is in a few days so I'm sligtly stressed right now trying to get everything sorted.
My headaches still haven't dissapeared so I went to the doctors again and they stole my blood :( I'll get my results tomorrow though.
Apart from that not much to report, apart from EMA being absolute silly billys as usual lol. Hope everyone is good! It seems so quiet around here lately! xxx
Stole your blood :rotfl:. Let us know if everything is okay with your headaches Kirst!! Hope you get better soon!!
I've actually enjoyed past few days :) I am so glad I am back at work. I have missed working so much!
I am pleased for you, Lea, hope you continue to enjoy the job :)
I have had a migraine type headache since Sunday night and hope to get an appointment with the doctor today, the painkillers he gave a few weeks ago when I had a week with permanent headache are not doing anything. :( Maybe he will steel some of my blood too :eek: :p
well done on the job, glad you are enjoying it,
I have work experience in a solicitors next week, im really looking for ward to it.
Well done on the new job Lea what it is? Life has been pretty boring up here, still working, still lusting after the same dirty man. :D Going to buy a new phone this weekend got my eye on a Samsung Diva.
Ah I am so pathetic. I am getting annoyed that Ant is chatting pallyish to my friend. They have met once, and they talk on facebook more than I talk to him in the week.. ending it with "x" aswell. And like he asked her something about something she and I both watches, but never bothered asking me if I watched it..
I wouldn't mind if it was one of my mates he has met loads.. but they have met ONCE.
I duno why I am annoyed. I just am paranoid that he's gonna be in to her instead of me..
I still don't love him mind :s
I would talk to him about that if I was in the same situation, Lea, otherwise this will always be between you imo. :)
I have the cold or what feels like the cold :crying: But it's all good cause I went to see Paloma Faith down in Birmingham on Wednesday and it was amazing :D!I nearly touched her hand :D Train journey down and up wasn't to bad. But by the time I got into Glasgow Central last night I just wanted to go to my bed. Although there was another two train journeys ahead of me haha :lol:. It seem's really quiet on here nowadays. Anyway hope we're all good :D! xx
Sorry that you are feeling under the weather again, Tannie but pleased you had a good time at the concert. :)
I would talk to him as well Lea, just to get it off your chest.
Im busy with the shows, three more left, and i also have an essay due monday so very very busy. My parents have gone away today as well, so i have the house t myself, if my little sister decides to throw a party i will kill her! she keeps mentioning the after show party tomorrow night but there is not a chance, i have been to a few and they get messy.
Right laugh today in Glasgow Met some old friends from school on the train home. They had been at the Celtic and Kilmarnock game. Anyway they had booze and you know me I'm not one to refuse a little vodka. There is four stops between Glasgow/edinburgh and Marley asked which one was ours. I said Waverly. Patrick one of my mates said Marley your getting of at Waverly me and your mum are getting of at Croy (near Glasgow). Marley asked what's at Croy? He said a playpark and an off-licences. Some people never grow up :lol:
A whole two weeks since I posted in this thread :eek: I've been so busy lately.
The past few days I've been writing assignments. I've got two done, just another one to go tomorrow. Then its on to revision :( Good news is I finish in less than four weeks and I only have one exam at the beginning of May. I was planning on going home on Friday but I feel depressed enough after two days of not speaking to anyone so I might go Tuesday or Wednesday. Two of my friends have gone to Palestine (I couldn't afford it) and everyone else has either moved into the library or gone home so there's nobody around.
I need something new to watch on DVD. I can't afford season 7 of 24 yet but I'm so bored. Megavideo is useless on proxies too.
Just come out of hospital, was admitted after suffering from bad headaches for 10 days. Loads of tests later, I am sure I am anaemic (sp) now after all the blood they have taken and a lumbar puncture and CT scan :(
Can't find nothing wrong but headache persists. Good news is I am able to fly to Spain tomorrow for a much needed break :cheer:
hope you are feeling better. Good news that you can fly to spain.
I finished my work experience today, i am really tired, was great to do it though, i am really pleased i did it. Was really good to see what it was like in an actual solicitors. Going t really enjoy my bank holiday, think i am helping my dad in his work next week.