I hate christmas.
ffs.
Its one of these "life just takes the piss sometimes " moods.
feeel so down.
nothing is going rigth anymore.
even my ********** music wont play without jamming!
I am going to smash something in A MINUTE!!
:wall:
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I hate christmas.
ffs.
Its one of these "life just takes the piss sometimes " moods.
feeel so down.
nothing is going rigth anymore.
even my ********** music wont play without jamming!
I am going to smash something in A MINUTE!!
:wall:
Take a deep breath.
If you can lie down for 10 minutes and close you eyes, just concentrate on your breathing and nothing else - empty your mind of all thoughts.
Christmas is a bad time for a lot of people, the hype is such that you feel that everyone is have a spectacularly wonderful time, except you.
Believe me they are not.
I hope that you feel better soon, be happy to feel better, don't expect miracles, just small improvements.
Take care
x
I'm really sorry to hear of the people who are suffering from depression. There are times when you just want to stay in your bed all day, with your head under the covers and your door shut. I've been there and I know it's not pleasant.
But please if you feel like this, seek some help. Even if it's just a call to the Samaritans, having somebody listen to you will do you the world of good. It'll take a massive weight off your shoulders and sometimes, it's good when you can talk to a stranger as they won't be judgemental and will stay neutral to what you tell them.
If you aren't feeling happy, then take action and change it. We only live once and life is too short. Because you can all get better, feel happier and fight this terrible condition off.
Meds started to work in the last 7-10 days, around the time of losing a friend. Not quite sure how that worked out, whether the meds just took five weeks to work for me or if shedding the stress was what I needed. I wouldn't say I'm 100% happier but things are a lot brighter.
I've found a new over the counter sleep aid called Sominex which works far better than Nytol or Kalms. One tablet and I slept right through, no dreams and no drowsiness the next day.
The meds make me sleepy in the afternoon and wide awake in the early hours. I've been trying to move the time I take them from morning to afternoon but I find myself needing them. Haven't figured out if that's a psychological thing where I'm scared not to take them or if my body needs them.
I second what Dave, Trinity, Perdita and everyone else has said here: go see a doctor. There's so much that can be done and mental illness shouldn't carry the social stigma that it does. One in three people have experienced a depressive episode at some point during their life, approximately twenty million people in England alone. Mental illness is nothing to be ashamed of, most of the time it is idiopathic (i.e. no specific cause such as bereavement, trauma or bullying) and it's NOT your fault.
The first time you go it is hard to convey how you feel and make the doctor understand, I don't deny that. It does get easier though. It's worth it in the long run to get things sorted as soon as you realise you have a problem. I waited seven years to see a doctor and regret not going sooner. I wasted my teenage years when I should have been out with friends having fun, and my first year of uni.
Hope they continue working, good luck. Sometimes stress relief can help. My friend swears by sominex too! I've never taken it, seems to be good stuff though!
As others have said, do get help. You shouldn't have to suffer for ages when something can be done.
I hate Christmas. I hate the snow. I hate feeling lonely this time of year, seeing couples walking around town just makes me feel sick. Gosh I feel like a scrooge.
I'm quite worried, last night at the pub my "friend" (if you can call him that for what he did) took my phone and read my text messages, when I took it off him, when I finally realised, he was reading a text that I had sent to a friend about the way I was feelign recently and I'm just scared of what he may have found out. :(
I've been there. The best thing you can do is talk to him, hopefully you're quite close to him? I found him reading my blog (which is about depression), which was quite unsettling, but later text him to say I wish you hadn't done that. Thankfully I trust him a lot, so I knew he wouldn't tell anyone; do you trust this friend? As it's in quotation marks, is he not really a friend?Quote:
Originally Posted by Little Donkey
Personally, I'd hope he wouldn't tell no matter how good a friend he is- I see it as something that no-one would really be interested in and therefore not make good gossip. That's just me however! Hope nothing too bad happens!
I say "friend" because a friend shouldn't take your phone and read through your text messages, I just find it really rude.
We are kind of close, you can talk about whatever with him... but this whole "being down" situation has been sniffed out by a few of my friends, and him being one of them... but thing is, they see it as a big joke, and always make really horrible jokes about me being suicidal/hurting myself. I'm kind of in 2 minds whether or not I should say anyting to him.
Your friends don't sound very mature or helpful if they're joking around about it. Perhaps you should say something sarcastically and hope they get it then leave off?Quote:
Originally Posted by Little Donkey
Grr. I'm annoyed at myself. Haven't been getting up until 1pm this week so I've been about six hours late with my meds. Today I feel awful and restless. The lack of daylight and vitamin D probably doesn't help either.
I was doing so well and now I've ballsed it up. Idiot.