Always

ok, well, this is yet another sam and phil script (who else) and it's set pretty much now, although Sam and Stuart have already been going out for a couple of months

Chapter 1

Phil breathed a heavy sigh, as he got out of his car, activated the automatic locking system and made his way towards the entrance of Sun Hill Police Station.

Here we go again, he thought to himself, yet another day of dealing with low-life scum, endless mounds of paperwork and oh yeah, witnessing the endless talents of the ‘supercouple’.

That’s what Phil had dubbed Sam and Stuart since they became an item a couple of months ago. Between their smirking to one another across the room, their ongoing flirting around the office and their incredibly annoying habit of always getting the required result on just about any and every case they worked on, Phil was pretty fed up of the whole situation.

Or course, he was totally jealous. He still harboured many feelings for Sam, which went far beyond friendship, and while Sam had never publicly returned these feelings, he had always felt a bond between them, which Sam now appeared to have completely moved on from.

And it’s my fault, Phil told himself for the millionth time in about 2 months, and now I’ve lost her for good.

Collectively, between Cindy, Kate, Heather and most recently, the way he had treated his brother, Phil couldn’t say he blamed her for looking elsewhere, although he would never admit that to anyone.

Nor would he let people see how much it hurt him inside to watch Sam so obviously happy with another man, especially one as slimy as Stuart Turner.

She thinks she’s so clever, he thought, when really the guys a complete cheat. He showed up here as a DC, and the next thing anyone knows, he’s being offered a DS’s position on a plate. A DS’s position which should have been taken by someone who had actually worked here before, and not a slime ball who just showed up one day.

Now he knew he was just humouring the green eyed monster, as he had never really got on with Suzie, and actually shuddered the thought of having her as his equal.

Upon walking into CID, Phil wasn’t surprised to see Sam sat on the end of Stuart’s desk, while he was sat in front of her on his chair. She was hanging on his every word, and giggling at some private joke between the two.

He walked over and took a seat at his desk, moments before DI Manson and DCI Meadows walked in, asking for quiet.

Phil stole a quick glace back in Sam’s direction, who, while still sitting on his desk had turned her back to Stuart so she was facing her commanding officers. Phil was unable to miss the protective hand Stuart had placed around Sam’s back, and onto the inside of her thigh.

Refocusing his attention, Phil zoned into the current discussion just in time to hear Neil saying, “With much resistance, we have successively managed to win back the services of the newly appointed hero of Nottingham.” He gestured behind him, just as DC Jo Masters entered the room, to applause and whistles.

“You caught the bad guys then?” Mickey shouted over the din.

“You doubted me?” Jo asked with raised eyebrows.

Mickey, on noticing her expression knew better than to disagree, “Never”, he told her. “It’s good to have you back.”

“It’s good to back”, she told him with a wink.

Phil had once again let his eyes wander back to Sam, who whispering something into Stuarts ear. The second his face broke into a smirk, Sam looked up, as if sensing that someone was watching her. She met Phil’s gaze, before he looked away sharply and tried to cover up his being caught by shouting to Jo, “It’s nice to have some eye candy back around here again.” That comment received a few more wolf whistles, before she playfully slapped him on the arm, before commenting, “Nice to know some things never change.”

love it really enjoyed reading that bit, cant wait for next bit!

loveing this, it's really good! can't wait for the next bit

This is great so far :D Poor Phill's jealous, and Jo's back. :cheer:

Woooo love it. Can't wait for more :D

Chapter 2

While everyone was busy welcoming Jo back, Sam gave Stuart a quick kiss on the cheek, before picking up some files and returning to her own desk.

Try as she might to concentrate on her paperwork, she couldn’t get the hurt she had seen in Phil’s eyes out of her mind. After several minutes feeling guilty, she shook her head in an attempt to clear her thoughts.

I’m with Stuart now, she reminded herself, and I like him. He’s caring and funny and smart and he seems to be genuinely interested in me, rather than everything that walks past in a skirt.

Not for the first time that morning, she sighed as her eyes wandered over to where Phil was now talking to Neil and Zain.

Probably about some important case, she reasoned. Maybe they had a new lead on the Amy Tennant case, although she doubted it that was true, it would have been confined to 3 officers.

She felt those feelings of helplessness and despair inside her, those feelings she had felt when her own daughter Abi had been abducted a couple of years ago. While most people sympathised with Amy’s parents, Sam truly knew what they were going through.

Still watching Phil, subconsciously now, she remembered how he had helped her through that horrific time. He had stood by her for months, comforting her. He had even tried to warm her off that monster by the name of Hugh Wallis, Abi’s abductor, but she hadn’t listened. When indeed, Hugh turned out to be not only Abi’s abductor, but also her manipulator and psychological bully, Phil had continued to support her, and not said, “I told you so”, not even once.

But then everything went so wrong, she remembered, thinking of Cindy, Kate and most recently Heather Lee’s, the solicitor, who Phil had slept with to get a result on a frustrating case.

She jumped a little as a shrill beep emanated from her computer screen, indicating that she had received an Instant Message. Opening it, she read that it was from Jo.

Jo: Hey Sam, u ok?

Sam instantly felt guilty. She and Jo, despite earlier clashes and disagreements, have developed what some may call a close friendship, and she hadn’t really welcomed her back, in her attempt to avoid Phil as much as possible.

Sam: Yeah, I’m fine. Sorry Jo, I didn’t mean to ignore you. It really is good to have you back, it’s not been the same around here since you left.

Jo: :) Thanks Sarge. Nice to know I was missed. So . . . how much have I missed?

Sam: Not much. Ramini left just as Suzie took her Sargeants exams but by the time she realised she’d passed, the DCI had already promoted a DC from another station.

Jo: Oooh, I bet that went down well. I take it that’s the guy who had his placed intimately on your leg before??? :D

Sam: JO!!!

Jo: Sorry, but I couldn’t help but notice. So . . . ?

Sam: What?

Jo: Details?

Sam: There are no details. We’ve only been together for a few weeks, a couple of months at most.

Jo: And what about Phil?

Sam felt a little anger bubbling beneath the surface, at the same time a lump formed in the back of her throat.

Sam: What about Phil? It had nothing to do with him who I choose to go out with, and come to think of it, it has nothing to do with you either DC Masters.

Sam shut down her PC, grabbed her coat and made towards the exit doors of CID, knocking her chair flying as she did so.

Oh i like the instant messaging idea, and the way sams upset over Phil. Good update :D

this story about sam and phil is really good :)

wow great story! its jut typical of phil and sam not to tell each other how they feel! can't wait for the next update.
bex
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fiery sam ruled by passion!!!!!!!!!!!! thats what i like to see

Chapter 3

Phil heard someone leaving their seat rather abruptly and was taken aback when he looked up to find it was Sam. As she grabbed her coat, knocking her chair over in the process and left the office before anyone had a chance to stop her, Phil fought an overwhelming urge to follow her and make sure she was ok.

Leave it, he told himself, it’s not like she’d tell you if anything was wrong now anyway.

He gave yet another wistful sigh as he remembered the days when he and Sam used to talk about everything. He saw Jo get up from her desk and make like she was following Sam, so satisfied that someone cared, and feeling rather defeated, he returned to his work.


Stuart, who had been on the phone while witnessing Sam’s rather strange departure, after hanging up his phone call, rose to his feet, aiming to find Sam and ensure she was ok.

However, he was intercepted halfway to the door, by a dark-haired woman.

Jo, I think the Governor called her, Stuart remembered, thinking back to the previous little welcome home party they had had only a few minutes earlier.

“Mind if I go?” she asked.

Stuart gave her a dubious look, wanting to find Sam himself really.

Jo persisted, “I’ll make sure she’s ok.”

Stuart seemed content with that and turned to make his way back to his own desk.


As Jo made her way down the stairs from CID and into the main reception area of Sun Hill Police Station, she noticed Sam, standing at the far edge of the car park, leaning on the railings.

She walked up behind her, only speaking when she got closer, “Sam, listen, I’m sorry. You know how much my foot likes to live in my mouth. I shouldn’t have said what I did about Phil.”

Only when she came up beside Sam, did Jo notice that her mascara had run when she’d let a few unruly tears fall.

“Oh Sam”, Jo coaxed, pulling her into a hug. Sam rested her head on Jo’s shoulder for several moments, while Jo felt her body shake as she sobbed.

Then, Sam seemed to regain a little more control, pulling away from Jo, sniffing and rubbing the tears off her face.

“Jo, I’m sorry. I don’t know what came over me. I never . . . “

“Cry?”

Sam looked down at her feet a little sheepishly.

Jo attempted to make her feel better, “Hey, don’t worry Sarge, your secrets safe with me.”

Sam smiled by way of gratitude.

“Sam, feel free to tell me to mind my own business, but are you gonna tell me what has the great Samantha Nixon crying like a baby?”

“Hey?” Sam protested, slapping her playfully on the arm. Jo giggled a little as Sam continued. “It’s just . . . Phil”, she admitted after a minute.

“He’s not very happy about you going out with this DS?”

“No, it’s just the opposite. I mean, when we first started going out, he tried to put Stuart off by telling him I was a grandma, but apart from that . . .”

Jo rolled her eyes and commented, “Typical Phil.”

Sam smiled at this, knowing the young DC was right; he was definitely a Phil thing to do.

“It’s just . . . I like Stuart, I do, but I thought Phil would be . . . I don’t know?” she resigned.

“Jealous?” Jo asked.

Sam shrugged, not sure herself. “I’m a horrible person aren’t I?”

“Well . . . “ Jo began, but didn’t get a chance to finish, as DS Stuart Turner came up behind them.

“Hey.”

Aww poor Sam. I hope Phil acts more jealous in real life than he does in this lol

great update. poor sam, she wants phil to be jealous! if only she knew...
bex
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yeh exactly - if only she knew...
hope you will be updating soon!!!:)

Aww, poor Sam and Phil. As much as I love them both, they really should get there heads banging together!!! lol. But Phil's jealousy is kinda sweet. aww.

this is really good, its nice to see the close friendship between sam and jo aswell as the unknown feelings(to each other) that sam and phil have

This is great, loving all the Phil and sam stories. Good to see Jo back in it to.

ok, well this is a short chapter, but im in college

Stuart came up beside Sam, sliding his arm around her waist as he did.

“Hey, are you ok?” he asked her, sounding genuinely concerned.

Sam immediately felt stupid. Wiping several tears from her face, she tried to sound as reassuring as she could, “Yeah Stuart, I’m fine. Tank-you”. She smiled to try and back her claims.

She glanced over at Jo, who seemed to have found something rather interesting on her shoes. Suddenly, she felt very uncomfortable stood there.

She took a step forward, so Stuarts arm dropped down to his side. “Well”. She started glancing down at her watch, “My shift finished 5 minutes ago, so I’m going to go home.”

She turned her back on her best friend and her boyfriend and all but sprinted towards her car.

“Do you want a lift?” Stuart’s voice called after her.

“No thanks, I’m fine”, she called back, feeling worse than she had in her entire life.

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Later that night, Sam stepped out of the hot, bubbly bath she had been soaking in for the last hour to find she had missed a call. Pushing the message button, she listened to Stuart’s voice as she dried herself off and put on her favourite silk PJ’s.

“Sam, it’s just me ringing to make sure you’re ok. You can ring me back if you want, I’ll be here all night. See you tomorrow at work”.

Sam sighed. She had hoped a long, hot soak in a bubbly bath would clear her mind and let her focus better, but all it had achieved was to wrinkle her skin so she looked like a prune.

Lying down on her bed on her stomach, she reached beneath her bed to pull out her diary.

Opening it up to a fresh page, she began to write:

Made a total fool of myself today. Now Stuart thinks I’m a moody cow and Jo thinks I’m a selfish bitch only out to get I want

But that’s not true.

I like Stuart, I really do. He’s nice and smart and funny.

Ugh, she thought to herself. I can’t do this tonight. She slapped the diary shut, pulled up the covers around her and switched off the light.

awww poor sam :(:( Hopefully Phil can cheer her up lol :D:D

This was really good update soon!

yeh - heres hoping that phil (knight in shining armour) will come and cheer her up!!!

awww it may not be huge but a good up date! Can't wait for the next bit

great chartep- can't wait for next one!
bex
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really cool, I want to read more desperately. :D Great update.

Phil was woken from his peaceful dreams by the shrill ringing of his telephone. With the overwhelming urge to stop the horrific noise just winning over the urge to go back to sleep, he rolled over and lifted the receiver off the hook.

Rubbing his eyes, he answered, “Hello?”

“Phil?” came the voice at the other end.

It was a voice Phil recognised all too well, and the sound of Sam so early in the morning made him sit up a little straighter in bed. “Is everything ok?”

Unbeknown to Phil, Sam smiled a little smile at the other end, touched at the obvious concern in his voice.

“Thanks, I’m fine Phil. Sorry to call you so early, but we’ve got a huge assault case and the DCI wants to know if you can come in.”

“Now?”

“As soon as possible.”

Phil had planned to catch up on some well-earned sleep this morning, but since he was already awake, he figured he might as well do something useful. Besides, if he was going to be working with Sam . . .

Don’t think like that, he scolded himself, just so long as that slime ball Turner isn’t there, it’ll be ok.

“What’s the matter? Can’t that place function without me for one morning?” he asked, trying to break the tension, which always seem to exist between them nowadays.

He heard Sam chuckle over the phone, a good sound, before she answered, “Much as this may surprise you, this station can actually cope very well without you Mr Self Centred. It’s just that Suzie and Zain are both off with some virus thingy and we couldn’t get hold of Jo. Me, Stuart and Terry are already working on it, but there’s only so much we can do.”

Had to jinx it, didn’t you, Phil questioned himself.

The thought of working with Sam and Stuart making googly eyes at one another all day made him want to just roll back over and go back to sleep. But he knew how pathetic and so very obvious that would be.

Noticing Phil’s hesitation, Sam prodded “Phil?”

Her voice jerked him back out of his thoughts, as he tried to cover up his uncomfortable pause.

“Yeah, sorry Sam, I got distracted, something out of the window, anyway, . . . yeah, it’s fine, tell the DCI I’ll be there in an hour.”

“Ok, will do”, she promised, before saying “See you soon” and hanging up.

Filled with dread, Phil went to get himself ready for what he guessed was going to be a long day.




Sam put the phone down and sighed, not for the first time that morning. She had notices his obvious pause at her mention of Stuart but . . .

Get over yourself Nixon, he’s moved on, he just doesn’t like Stuart.

Feeling someone looking at her, she turned to see Stuart smiling at her from across the room, where he stood with Terry. She smiled back, trying to cover up the fact that inside, her heart was breaking.

Returning to her work, she tried not to think about the fact that she would soon be working with both Phil and Stuart.

ok , well here's the next chapter, but i think it's kind of getting a little boring now

i've got an idea where i might take this story, although im sure if you'll like it

well, i'll try it and see what you think

i'll update asap

please keep reviewing, you're all great

xxx

another great episode!please update soon :)

yeah great update- its definatley not boring. looking forward to next one.
bex
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Yeah definately not boring! This chapter was really good. Poor sam thinks Phil's over her :(:(

update soon!

Can't wait to read the rest, was wondering is title from song Always because I think that song so reminds me of them?
Please update soon as I'm liking this and want to see what your spin is on it.
Becki x x x

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Originally Posted by billfan

Can't wait to read the rest, was wondering is title from song Always because I think that song so reminds me of them?
Please update soon as I'm liking this and want to see what your spin is on it.
Becki x x x

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not really, the title will be explained later in the story

and i wouldn't get too excited about my 'spin', as i have a feeling not many of you will actually like it

i just wanted to do something different

i promise my next one (so long as you dont ban me or anything for this one) will be happier

i will try and update soon, but if you dont like it, please tell me and then i can try to rewrite it

stacy

xxx

Sam closed the door behind her, leaning on it for a moment and closing her eyes.

I’m so glad today is over, she thought, remembering how awkward she had felt all day. What with trying to avoid Stuart, and then feeling bad about it, and then trying to avoid Phil, and still having feelings towards Phil, and then feeling uncomfortable around them both, knowing that they were both uncomfortable too, it had been one hell of a day.

“Mum?” came a voice from somewhere inside her house.

Willing her body to move, she walked through the tiny porch area, closing the porch door behind her, and placing her bag and keys on the side table, she shouted back to her daughter, “Abi? Where are you?”

“In the front room mum”, came Abi’s reply.

Walking into the front room and shaking her jacket off, she asked, “So, how was college?”

Abi shrugged, concentrating on the TV, “School-like.”

Sam didn’t have the energy nor the will tonight to even try and invoke a response, so she walked out to wards the kitchen shouting, “You want a drink Abi?”

Abi walked into the kitchen carrying a glass of water, “No thanks, I’ve already got one.” She leaned against the doorframe, watching her mother make herself a strong cup of coffee.

“That bad huh?” she asked Sam.

“Sorry?” Sam asked, confused.

“Strong black coffee equals a bad day at the office”, Abi informed her.

“Abi, I always drink strong black coffee”, she reminded her daughter with a smile.

Abi tilted her head to one side, considering this. “True”, she began, “but I’m not wrong am I? There is something wrong.”

Sam took a seat at the breakfast bar, hands around her hot drink and stared into her cup as though all the answers she wanted were hidden there.

“Mum?” Abi probed. “Ok, now you’re starting to worry me, what’s wrong?”

“Isn’t it the mothers job to ask the awkward questions?”

“Usually, but I think we can make an exception.”

Sam smiled, no matter how much she hated Abi’s father, she was eternally grateful for him, because without him, she wouldn’t have the most beautiful daughter in the world.

She knew it was pointless to even try and put Abi off the scent, now she knew something was wrong. “It’s just . . . Phil. And Stuart. And the whole situation. Abi, I don’t know what to do anymore. Stuart is so nice and kind and considerate and I think he really likes me, but . . . . it’s just . . . he’s not . . . “

“He’s not Phil?” Abi finished for her.

Sam nodded. “I’m so stupid.”

“You’re no stupid Mum”, Abi told her. “You can’t help who you fall for.”

“But I have Stuart and he’s been so good to me and I don’t want to hurt him.”

“I know Mum, but by doing this, you’re hurting yourself and Phil.”

Sam snorted. “I don’t think Phil even notices me any more.”

“Now I know that’s not true and I think you do too. Phil is mad about you and I think you should tell him how you really feel.”

“It’s not that easy Abi. Stuart . . .”

“Is a nice guy”, Abi interrupted, “but he’s going o get hurt anyway, whether it’s now or in a years time. Don’t you think it’s better on him to know now?”

“Mum, just what you want to do, think about yourself for once. Think about this though, How would you feel if Phil left town tomorrow and you never got the chance to tell him how much you love him?”


Abi walked out, ignoring her mothers protests of, “I never said I loved him?

wow - another really good episode.please update soon. by the way i like your 'spin' so far!!!!:)

Koolies, I'm liking it. Also about your earlier reply to my post. Your not having her choose Stuart over phil are you? Or her choosing neither? or her dying because I'll cry. However, thats a bit hypocritical since my fic on fanfic.net killed her off. Hehe. Ssshhh.

loving this story and really like the way its going- please update soon.
bex
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that was really good. I hope you don't kill sam offthough lol

another great update. I'm really enjoying this skript

“Morning”, Sam acknowledged Stuart as she walked over to her desk the following morning.

“Morning”, he replied, before he lent over his desk to give her a kiss. The look on his face when she pulled away was enough to make tears well in Sam’s eyes.

I’m such a bitch.

Returning to his desk, he made himself look busy, shuffling some case notes around and desperately avoiding her eye.

Walking over to his desk, she said “Sorry, Stuart. It’s just . . . can we talk?”

“Sure”. He replied, not glancing up from his desk. When she made no attempt to leave his desk, he eventually looked up asking, “Now?”

“Are you busy?”

“Nothing that can’t wait.”

“Ok, good, you want to grab a coffee?”

Stuart put the files he’d been shifting around down, and motioning to the door, he told her. “After you”.

Placing two coffee filled mugs on the table, Sam sat down, across from Stuart. They were sat in the far corner, away from the hustle and bustle of the uniform officers who were on a break.

“Stuart, there’s something I need to tell you.” She continued to stare down into her coffee cup, too afraid to look into Stuart’s eyes.

“Well, from the tone of your voice, I guess it’s not about my choice of clothing!”

Sam glanced at him briefly, smiling. “Stuart, it’s just that I think this might not be such a good idea.”

“You mean us?”

Sam nodded. “You have to know that it isn’t you though. I really do like you, you’re funny and smart and kind and under different circumstances . . . “, she trailed off, not wanting to give him any false hope. Now that she had started, she knew she was doing the right thing for everyone. In the long run.

However, that doesn’t help me in the present, she thought, carrying on as best she could.

“It’s me, I’m not ready for another relationship. Well, not with . . . “, she wasn’t making a very good job of this.

Stuart, who had remained silent through her ramblings so far, now spoke up. “With me?”

Sam noticed a somewhat understanding tone in his voice. Looking up, she saw he was smiling, although the smile was obviously filled with hurt.

“I’m so sorry.”

He placed his hand over hers on the table. “It’s alright Sam, you don’t have to explain.”

“But I want to”, she protested.

“No, I mean it. You don’t have to. Don’t get me wrong, these last few months have been amazing and you’re amazing Samantha, you really are. I’m going to miss you, but I was kidding myself, thinking that I could ever come between you two.”

“Sorry?”

Sam was sat with her back to the counter and didn’t notice Phil come in and order a coffee. Giggling slightly at the look of confusion of her pretty face, Stuart nodded his head in the direction of where Phil stood, now paying for his purchases. Turning around, she saw Phil and meeting his gaze, she blinked back the tears that had been threatening to fall all morning.
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Phil noticed Sam and Stuart sat together in the corner, holding hands across the table.

Trying not to be noticed, he paid for his coffee. However, he couldn’t help but look, as he did, both Sam and Stuart glancing in his direction.

Oh great, he thought, hastily making his exit from the canteen, they were probably laughing at how pathetic I am.

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“Sam, I’ve seen the way you look at one another, along with the rest of the station. You know I don’t like the guy, but I know he makes you happier than I ever could. I don’t know much about the history between the two of you, only what I’ve heard, but all I need is to see you together and it’s obvious you were made for each other.”

Those tears that had been welling up inside her, now escaped, tumbling down her cheeks as she held Stuart’s hands in her own. “I’m so sorry.”

“Don’t be. Just promise me one thing?”

“What?”

“Tell him how you feel.”

Stuart made to leave, as Sam tried to wipe the tears that had fallen from her eyes. Before he had a chance to leave, Sam grabbed his hand, “Friends?” she asked.

Stuart took a step back towards her and kissing her on the forehead, he promised, “The best.”

As she watched him walk away, she honestly thought, with the exception of finding Abi after her abduction, she had never been so grateful to anyone in all her life.

great chapter. really moving- i very nearly cried myself! can't wait for the next update. this has to be one of my favourite fanfics ever!
bex
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Really good update. well done

I cant wait to see Sam tell Phil her feelings

really good chapter. goo for stuart for tellin sam to tell phil her feelings