CrazyLea
04-03-2008, 23:08
I wrote this song fic. It's from Ruth's POV. A year from now. A diary entry. It's not that great.
The song is "Chantal Kreviazuk - It Feels Like Home".. (Lyrics in Italics)
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
February 2nd 2009. It’s been a year now. It’s been hard, but, I’m getting there. Eventually. Thanks to him.
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
I’ve got a reason to live now. Life is actually.. Fun now. I like it.
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
Before.. It.. Happened I was miserable. I felt like I didn’t belong here. I was a stranger in my own body. Everything that could have gone wrong, did. There was nothing that was going to change that.
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
I see now. All I needed was someone. Someone to care. Someone to be there. A friend. A friend to help me see just how great I am. A friend to pick me up when I fell. And believe me, that was a lot.
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
I’m better now. Not completely, but I am. The only falling I’ve done in the past 12 months is in love. With him. With Toby.
A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
I still get scared. There are times when I hear things that shouldn’t be heard. Not by me. Not by anyone.
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light
With Toby though none of it seems to matter. The sounds are more, whispers. Whispers of a distant memory.
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
He doesn’t have to say anything. Just the thought of his arms wrapped up snuggly around me is enough. I feel safe. I feel happy. Something I didn’t think I could feel again. Something I haven’t felt since I was a child.
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much
He told me he loved me the other day you know. We were taking a stroll. Something my councillor said would help keep my spirits up. We were taking a stroll. My hand clasped within his. When he turned to me. He looked me straight in the eye and said it. “Ruth, I er, I do love you ya know.” In true Toby fashion. May not be the most romantic of ways to say it, but for me it was. No-one had ever said that to me. Not in that way. I couldn’t say it back though. It’s not that I don’t feel that way. Just, I’m not ready. Toby understands though. He’s willing to wait. He sure is a keeper.
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
Well there’s nothing more to say for today. Let’s just say this has been the best few months of my life. I can’t even remember why I did what I did. It all just seems so.. Silly now. Now that I have Toby in my life. That’s all I need. Toby, myself and my job. But I’ve learnt not to let my job run my life. From now on it’s on my terms. My terms only. I'm Ruth. I'm home.
The song is "Chantal Kreviazuk - It Feels Like Home".. (Lyrics in Italics)
Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
February 2nd 2009. It’s been a year now. It’s been hard, but, I’m getting there. Eventually. Thanks to him.
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
I’ve got a reason to live now. Life is actually.. Fun now. I like it.
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
Before.. It.. Happened I was miserable. I felt like I didn’t belong here. I was a stranger in my own body. Everything that could have gone wrong, did. There was nothing that was going to change that.
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
I see now. All I needed was someone. Someone to care. Someone to be there. A friend. A friend to help me see just how great I am. A friend to pick me up when I fell. And believe me, that was a lot.
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
I’m better now. Not completely, but I am. The only falling I’ve done in the past 12 months is in love. With him. With Toby.
A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
I still get scared. There are times when I hear things that shouldn’t be heard. Not by me. Not by anyone.
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light
With Toby though none of it seems to matter. The sounds are more, whispers. Whispers of a distant memory.
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
He doesn’t have to say anything. Just the thought of his arms wrapped up snuggly around me is enough. I feel safe. I feel happy. Something I didn’t think I could feel again. Something I haven’t felt since I was a child.
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much
He told me he loved me the other day you know. We were taking a stroll. Something my councillor said would help keep my spirits up. We were taking a stroll. My hand clasped within his. When he turned to me. He looked me straight in the eye and said it. “Ruth, I er, I do love you ya know.” In true Toby fashion. May not be the most romantic of ways to say it, but for me it was. No-one had ever said that to me. Not in that way. I couldn’t say it back though. It’s not that I don’t feel that way. Just, I’m not ready. Toby understands though. He’s willing to wait. He sure is a keeper.
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
Well there’s nothing more to say for today. Let’s just say this has been the best few months of my life. I can’t even remember why I did what I did. It all just seems so.. Silly now. Now that I have Toby in my life. That’s all I need. Toby, myself and my job. But I’ve learnt not to let my job run my life. From now on it’s on my terms. My terms only. I'm Ruth. I'm home.