I think I need help

[Aimee]

Hi,
I know i dont post on here because of a number of different reasons but i read it a lot. I dont know how to say this but i've been watching hollyoaks and the storyline between Hannah and Melissa with the eating problems has made me think about myself.
I'm thinking about it now, well i have been for the last few weeks but i think i have an eating problem. Actually no i do have an eating problem.
Its tearing my life apart, i've lost all my friends because i dont like to go out where there's food because they'll be eating and drinking. There are calories in everything, i only drink tap water and the last time we did go out for a drink i drunk water all night and they were teasing me about it and calling me cheap but they dont see, they're just so blind to the fact that one drink holds so many calories and the weight that i'd put on if i had that would make me even more obese than i am now.
My only good in this is that my family are never in because my parents both work, me and my brothers just get our own meals so they never realise what i'm doing. I cant remember the last time i had a proper meal.
I'm moody and stressy about all the little things and i dont even know why, i get annoyed with people when they havent really done anything wrong.

I havent eaten properly for months, sometimes a few bits of dried cereal and half a slice of toast because i have such low resistance. I know its bad and i'm going to make myself fatter please dont hate me for it, i will try less.
I've lost 4 stone but i'm still huge! It just wont go away the last lot of fat.
I'm 5'6" and when i weighed myself earlier i was 7 stone. I cant believe i've actually told you that but you dont know me.

I know its not right what i'm doing, i dont want to end up in hospital like Melissa on Hollyoaks. I want to start uni in a few weeks but if i carry on i'll end up like her then i wont be able to cope with it, i dont want that to happen to me.
All i want is to be skinny and beautiful and happy. I dont know what to do

Sorry to put this onto everyone, i've said so much and you dont know me so i dont blame anyone for ignoring me. I'm sorry
xxxx

[CrazyLea]

Well you've made the first step by admitting and realising you have a problem.

My advice would be to go see a doctor, talk to a family member/friend/someone you trust, and get the help you need. If you're worried about telling someone, then the doctor would be the best bet, they see that sort of thing all the time, so there'd be nothing to worry about. They can refer you to the right people and get you on course for sorting it all out.

[Bryan]

Well to me this has made the whole storyline worthwhile, for someone to realise they have a problem and come forward.

Well done Aimee for admitting you have a problem, you have come over the first hurdle. Now you have to get help.

Discuss this with a friend or family member, someone who loves you and will help you through this difficult time. Obviously like Hannah you'll have to see a doctor and counciller, they will help you out.

It will be a long road, but if you're willing to beat this illness then you will. I wish you all the best, and hope you get better soon! x

[DaVeyWaVey]

Well done for writing that post Aimee - it must have been hard for you to post that and too realise you have this problem but the help of Hollyoaks has obviously made you realise that you do have some kind of eating problem.

You've accepted it and now it's probably best you do something about it - speak to someone who you trust - maybe a councillor or a doctor, someone who can understand the situation you are in and they can help you on the road to recovery.

I hope you get the help you need and you recover from this illness. Good luck.

[Meh]

Hi,
I've lost 4 stone but i'm still huge! It just wont go away the last lot of fat.
I'm 5'6" and when i weighed myself earlier i was 7 stone. I cant believe i've actually told you that but you dont know me.

I know its not right what i'm doing, i dont want to end up in hospital like Melissa on Hollyoaks. I want to start uni in a few weeks but if i carry on i'll end up like her then i wont be able to cope with it, i dont want that to happen to me.
All i want is to be skinny and beautiful and happy. I dont know what to do



At 5'6" and 7 stone you can't have any fat and I certainly wouldn't class that as obese. If you do have any fat, its your body's desperate attempts to hold onto reserves because you are not eating.

I would echo what everyone had said so far in this thread and go see a doctor/councillor. Its a positive step that you know you have a problem.

Being skinny doesn't equate to being beautiful or happy.

In the meanwhile try to eat healthy food (http://www.whfoods.com). At the minimum you should eat a big breakfast of wholegrain/museli type cereal. You won't put on any weight eating a breakfast.

[Katy]

Well done on posting it, i imagine it must of been hard for you. I tink you really need to talk to a doctor and someone in your fmaily or a friend, it will help you, i had a friend who suffered at secondary school and she was able to get help but it was a whole lot easier as she had told me and another firned of ours and we helped her through it.

Breakfast is definitly the tip if you eat a big breakfast then you don't put any weight on as you burn it off during the day.

I wish you all the best, Good Luck katy x