leanne27
06-08-2006, 09:56
about three weeks ago a very very close friend of mine went to New York for a holiday, he told me he had booked the tickets for 3 weeks (he has gone to visit family) i knew i would miss him but at that time when he was about to leave i was actually wanting him to go because i was confused about our relasonship - i think i mentioned in another thread i was all confused because 2 months ago we became a lot more than friends ( i have secretly liked him for months now but never wanted to ruin our frienship by admitting so) however about 2 months ago he told me he was starting to have feelings for me and so a few days later i texted him (i know i should have told him face to face) that i felt the same.
He then texted me back sayin " i think your wicked as a mate just that's as far as it goes" I was left feeling all confused but then he said he wanted to see me that following saturday i was busy and so we saw each other on the monday, things were slightly akward as last time we had seen each other things had seriously developed in our relasonship, however i found out how long he was planning on going to New York for and he told me 3 weeks, since he has been gone i have been the most depressed i have ever been.
I literally do not know what to do, he went on friday the 14th of july and so i presumed would be back 2 days ago on friday the 4th as that has been 3 weeks, but i have still not heard from him and he is not yet back, he told my other friend he was going for 3 and a half weeks and also his other mate he would be back this week so i know he must be due back soon, but i dont know i think im reely loosing it:crying: i cant concentrate on anything i actually dont care about anything anymore ALL i want is him back, i now realise that i truly love this guy and i feel really scared and lonely without him.
He has helped me out so many times before when ive been loew he has always been at the end of the phone or there to email but now he isn't, my best friend is tired of listening and im taking out all my anger on my mum who is sick of me talking about him, im just so sad, so what i want really is some advice or someone with a different perspective to talk to, i just feel so low and that actually scares me that without just one person i can feel like this, i feel like half of me is missing and just miss him so much it actually hurts, i really dont know how to cope, he's the last thing i think about at night and the first thing i think about at night, even when i sleep i dream about him EVERY night!!! its like i cant get away from him and its really wearing me down now, im not acting like me anymore, please help, thanks for reading.
He then texted me back sayin " i think your wicked as a mate just that's as far as it goes" I was left feeling all confused but then he said he wanted to see me that following saturday i was busy and so we saw each other on the monday, things were slightly akward as last time we had seen each other things had seriously developed in our relasonship, however i found out how long he was planning on going to New York for and he told me 3 weeks, since he has been gone i have been the most depressed i have ever been.
I literally do not know what to do, he went on friday the 14th of july and so i presumed would be back 2 days ago on friday the 4th as that has been 3 weeks, but i have still not heard from him and he is not yet back, he told my other friend he was going for 3 and a half weeks and also his other mate he would be back this week so i know he must be due back soon, but i dont know i think im reely loosing it:crying: i cant concentrate on anything i actually dont care about anything anymore ALL i want is him back, i now realise that i truly love this guy and i feel really scared and lonely without him.
He has helped me out so many times before when ive been loew he has always been at the end of the phone or there to email but now he isn't, my best friend is tired of listening and im taking out all my anger on my mum who is sick of me talking about him, im just so sad, so what i want really is some advice or someone with a different perspective to talk to, i just feel so low and that actually scares me that without just one person i can feel like this, i feel like half of me is missing and just miss him so much it actually hurts, i really dont know how to cope, he's the last thing i think about at night and the first thing i think about at night, even when i sleep i dream about him EVERY night!!! its like i cant get away from him and its really wearing me down now, im not acting like me anymore, please help, thanks for reading.