Abi
20-03-2006, 18:58
This is just something random i wrote. Not strictly a script, or a monologue, but along those lines i suppose. Its more of a one parter i suppose. Its not based on any programme or anything, just on something that came into my head a while ago. Hope you like it :)
EDIT: Its not autobiographical either :p
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Have you ever had one of those days, when things just dont go your way? Where everything you touch, slips out of your hand? Where you can't do anything right? Well what happens, if thats your life? Thats me. I've tried my whole life, to be the person that everyone wanted me to be- a perfectionist. Well i can't do it anymore. Mum always told me to be yourself. Fat lot of help that was, when your forced to be the opposite. My life has just been one long journey, in the complete wrong direction. All i ever wanted was to be me, do what i wanted to do, be who i wanted to be... but thats not good enough. And how can i go back on what i've made myself into now? I can't, thats the end of it. Literally. Life is what you made it, and i screwed mine up. So this is goodbye. I read in the papers about teenage girls suicide notes, but i never thought i'd turn into one of them...
I've tried to talk, but how can you talk, when you hate the person you've become? Theres no going back now, i've realised that. My lifes over, and thats that. I'm not going to drag it out any longer. So thank you, for everything. You've been by my side through thick and thin. I can rely on you. I know you. I could be open with you, and tell you things that my best mate didn't even know. I've been through so much in my life, and even though i haven't known you for long, i feel like you've been there, holding my hand in the darkness. You were my heart, my everything, but how can i carry on when you know and love someone, who i hate? It doesn't work like that...
So goodbye, my baby. You've loved me, i've hated me. But i'll meet you, one day, and we'll stand once more in the darkness, side by side, holding hands. I love you, baby, believe that no matter what...but some things can't be changed. Never forget me, promise me that? Because even if we can't hold hands anymore, i'll still be with you, holding you, loving you. No matter what.
All my love
x
EDIT: Its not autobiographical either :p
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Have you ever had one of those days, when things just dont go your way? Where everything you touch, slips out of your hand? Where you can't do anything right? Well what happens, if thats your life? Thats me. I've tried my whole life, to be the person that everyone wanted me to be- a perfectionist. Well i can't do it anymore. Mum always told me to be yourself. Fat lot of help that was, when your forced to be the opposite. My life has just been one long journey, in the complete wrong direction. All i ever wanted was to be me, do what i wanted to do, be who i wanted to be... but thats not good enough. And how can i go back on what i've made myself into now? I can't, thats the end of it. Literally. Life is what you made it, and i screwed mine up. So this is goodbye. I read in the papers about teenage girls suicide notes, but i never thought i'd turn into one of them...
I've tried to talk, but how can you talk, when you hate the person you've become? Theres no going back now, i've realised that. My lifes over, and thats that. I'm not going to drag it out any longer. So thank you, for everything. You've been by my side through thick and thin. I can rely on you. I know you. I could be open with you, and tell you things that my best mate didn't even know. I've been through so much in my life, and even though i haven't known you for long, i feel like you've been there, holding my hand in the darkness. You were my heart, my everything, but how can i carry on when you know and love someone, who i hate? It doesn't work like that...
So goodbye, my baby. You've loved me, i've hated me. But i'll meet you, one day, and we'll stand once more in the darkness, side by side, holding hands. I love you, baby, believe that no matter what...but some things can't be changed. Never forget me, promise me that? Because even if we can't hold hands anymore, i'll still be with you, holding you, loving you. No matter what.
All my love
x