feelingyellow
04-02-2006, 16:43
Hey everyone! This is just a simple, one-parter about non-soap characters, hope you like :)
Dead Love
I pushed Amy into Room 119 as Jessie held the door open. Straight away I saw him; all I could do was turn away as quickly as possible. But it wasn't because he had a load of blood on his face; it was because I still couldn't.
I picked up Amy and gave her to Jessie.
'Let her see her Daddy and just tell her it'll all be ok.' I said to her.
Jessie did what she was told but then gave Amy back to me when she started to cry. I sang her a little lullaby for a bit and she finally stopped and closed her eyes. I put her back in her buggy and caught a quick glimpse of him - but I still couldn't do it. I wanted to look at my husband but since discovering what he's been doing ... my eyes would just automatically turn away.
'I know he's done a bad thing, Sarah, but this could be the last time you see him - you have to look, you have to touch, you have to talk.' said Jessie.
'I know,' I replied. I stared at my feet and walked over to him. Slowly I lifted my head up but as soon as I did I put it down again. 'I must do this.' I told myself. So I tried. And tried. And tried - but I still couldn't do it. Instead I talked.
'Not so long ago, I thought you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I don't think that anymore. I don't know if I want you to die or not. Just...' I couldn't say anything else, there seemed to be nothing left to say. I got one finger and felt for his hand. I just touched it for a second before I stopped. I still couldn't do that either.
'Sarah...' started Jessie, but the noise of the heart monitor got really loud and the nurse ushered us out of the room as one of the doctors said 'Give him 360 joules'.
Amy had woken up so I had to sing a really loud lullaby to cover up the noise from Room 119. But then it stopped and I heard nothing at all, it had happened - I just knew it.
A nurse came out and told us. Jessie hugged me as she burst into tears. I patted her on the back as I felt her tears dropping on my shoulder from her. I wish I could be like Jessie - but I just couldn't. I couldn't frown, I couldn't cry, I couldn't feel sad or angry. I didn't feel anything ... my husband has just died and I couldn't feel any emotion at all.
Dead Love
I pushed Amy into Room 119 as Jessie held the door open. Straight away I saw him; all I could do was turn away as quickly as possible. But it wasn't because he had a load of blood on his face; it was because I still couldn't.
I picked up Amy and gave her to Jessie.
'Let her see her Daddy and just tell her it'll all be ok.' I said to her.
Jessie did what she was told but then gave Amy back to me when she started to cry. I sang her a little lullaby for a bit and she finally stopped and closed her eyes. I put her back in her buggy and caught a quick glimpse of him - but I still couldn't do it. I wanted to look at my husband but since discovering what he's been doing ... my eyes would just automatically turn away.
'I know he's done a bad thing, Sarah, but this could be the last time you see him - you have to look, you have to touch, you have to talk.' said Jessie.
'I know,' I replied. I stared at my feet and walked over to him. Slowly I lifted my head up but as soon as I did I put it down again. 'I must do this.' I told myself. So I tried. And tried. And tried - but I still couldn't do it. Instead I talked.
'Not so long ago, I thought you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me. I don't think that anymore. I don't know if I want you to die or not. Just...' I couldn't say anything else, there seemed to be nothing left to say. I got one finger and felt for his hand. I just touched it for a second before I stopped. I still couldn't do that either.
'Sarah...' started Jessie, but the noise of the heart monitor got really loud and the nurse ushered us out of the room as one of the doctors said 'Give him 360 joules'.
Amy had woken up so I had to sing a really loud lullaby to cover up the noise from Room 119. But then it stopped and I heard nothing at all, it had happened - I just knew it.
A nurse came out and told us. Jessie hugged me as she burst into tears. I patted her on the back as I felt her tears dropping on my shoulder from her. I wish I could be like Jessie - but I just couldn't. I couldn't frown, I couldn't cry, I couldn't feel sad or angry. I didn't feel anything ... my husband has just died and I couldn't feel any emotion at all.