billfan
27-01-2006, 11:13
This a one-shot about how Samantha Nixon still has feelings for Phil Hunter (The Bill) Hope you like it. Please review after as I love reading what people think about my stories. Told from Sam's point of view.
I see Phil almost everyday and I nearly always think: Why did I let him slip away. I've seen him when he's happy, sad, annoyed, near death. Just loads of different times. When I was acting Detective Inspecter I pretty much hated him. He was sickening. Bent, annoying, a womaniser, thought he was so cool. But now, he's different. More sweet, funny, nice and a bit more of a gentlemen. Phil says that I have a right to hate him, but everytime I try to I just can't. He's so sweet to me sometimes. Don't we both deserve to be with someone who we love? I thought we were really gonna make something of that date, until Kate turned up. I shouldn't of, but I felt so betrayed. I felt like my heart was shattering, again. I always vow that I'll never love someone again, but then I do. I always seem to fall for the bad boy image, that's why I always get my heartbroken. Truth is I shouldn't be thinking of him so much, he's with Cindy now. I just lost my chance. I shouldn't have walked away when Phil kissed me. I should have just kissed him back. I couldn't though. He was turning back into his old self, how we should be together, how much I like him. So I pushed him off me and walked away. I had to walk away so that Phil wouldn't see how much I was hurting. I lost my chance and he gained back his wife. So that's it basically, he's happy and I act like I'm happy. All well, or at least all well on the surface.
I see Phil almost everyday and I nearly always think: Why did I let him slip away. I've seen him when he's happy, sad, annoyed, near death. Just loads of different times. When I was acting Detective Inspecter I pretty much hated him. He was sickening. Bent, annoying, a womaniser, thought he was so cool. But now, he's different. More sweet, funny, nice and a bit more of a gentlemen. Phil says that I have a right to hate him, but everytime I try to I just can't. He's so sweet to me sometimes. Don't we both deserve to be with someone who we love? I thought we were really gonna make something of that date, until Kate turned up. I shouldn't of, but I felt so betrayed. I felt like my heart was shattering, again. I always vow that I'll never love someone again, but then I do. I always seem to fall for the bad boy image, that's why I always get my heartbroken. Truth is I shouldn't be thinking of him so much, he's with Cindy now. I just lost my chance. I shouldn't have walked away when Phil kissed me. I should have just kissed him back. I couldn't though. He was turning back into his old self, how we should be together, how much I like him. So I pushed him off me and walked away. I had to walk away so that Phil wouldn't see how much I was hurting. I lost my chance and he gained back his wife. So that's it basically, he's happy and I act like I'm happy. All well, or at least all well on the surface.