Poems

[Lisa321]

Sorry if this is wrong, I don't know where to put this thread, so I chose here. Poems are kind of art aren't they. :hmm:
If i am in the wrong forum feel freeeeee to move me. :thumbsup:
Please, if you post poems that are not your own, to write the authors name. Do not claim it as your own lol. :nono: :eek:
Thankyou, Lisa
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I wrote this one a couple of months ago, hope you like. Its strange, i understand it beacuse it reflects my life.

One Wilted Rose

A wilted rose on the ground
Dead and lifeless, now found
This little plant represents a lot to me
The endless suffering you can't see

The pain and the sorrow
You won't see til tomorrow
The hidden secrets and scars
Glimmers of hope secured in the stars

The violence and abuse
For that there is no excuse
The mini clone inside of you
Telling you what to do

The Hurt and the lies
The girl who wants to die
Untie the strings she holds onto
They keep her alive, just like you

She wants to free her soul and mind
Hide the things she doesn't want anyone to find
Say sorry for her life she feels she has wrecked
Tighten the noose around her neck

Alone in the room she'd cry and cry
In her head she'd wanted to die
She didn't dare ask her friends for the help she needed
So she cut until her whole wrist bleeded

One fateful night her wish came true
Her friends and family didn't have a clue
She didn't want the night to end that way
Talking on her mobile, This is hard to say

She was struck by a car and fell to the ground
The car drove off, no-one was around
She lie dead in the road
Dead and as red as this wilted rose

Her family were shocked by this news
That news and some other news too
They found the scars and cried out their hearts
The unplanned killing that destroyed every part

On rose for each tragic end
For the families who's lives begin to mend
If you feel like she did inside
Ask yourself- Do you really want to die?

©Lisa D

[di marco]

wow that was great, really emotional! :)

[Lisa321]

Thankyou! :-) :cheer:
I'll post a few more then lol :thumbsup:
xXx
Lisa

[Lisa321]

Mummy and Me

This has not happened to me in real life
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Daddy didn't come home last night
Mummy said he was with his mates
She was right, when he came stumbling in
Woke me up, It was late

Daddy slurred his words
As he staggered through the door
The look on Mummy's face told me
She didn't want him anymore

I turned away in disgust
When he came near
He pushed his face against me
Kissed me and I smelt beer

Beer and cider in his breath
Alcohol that makes him so mad
Don't want to go to bed tonight
In the morning I can guarantee Mummy will be sad.

I will lie awake and hear Mummy scream
A few bangs and Daddy shout
I'm too little to even think
What they're rowing about

I fall asleep to the sound of crying
Daddy doesn't cry so it must be Mummy
In my dreams I know somethings wrong
I get that worrying feeling in my tummy

I wake up and worry what to do
Its the morning and Daddy's gone to work
I wonder why Mummy has new bruises
Why she's been hurt

If I ask her, Will she shout
I know who's done it, My Daddy, Thats who
Hurt my mummy and gave her bruises
Left me scared and helpless, What do I do?

Do I ignore it, Mummy loves him
But Daddy must not love Mummy after all
I don't want to hear my dads voices again
Then later Mummy fall

I don't want to see the look on her face
The one all scared and anxious who flinches so
I know inside she doesn't have the guts
The guts to go ahead and say it, Daddy please go

So for now we live in silence,
No love at all shared
Mummy knows about me inside
That I'm deeply scared

Scared Mummy will die and leave me here
Leave me in Daddy's world
If Mummy dies, who will he hit?
Surely he won't start on his little girl

I've phoned my Nan, Left it off the hook
She can hear everything, what he's doing
She storms round and shes mad
Hurray for Nan, We're no longer sad

Now Mummy's happy
And Daddy's in prison
We live together, Just mummy and Me
Together, Our life has risen

© Lisa Kymberley Dark :thumbsup:

[Jade]

That was excellent, please post more!

[di marco]

another excellent poem, your writings great! :D

[chance]

Will i ever see him again i wonder?
When ever i see him my heart beats like thunder,
Will i be able to cope without him in my life?
To go through all that pain and strife.
Not seeing him every day will be pure hell,
Three words i want to say to him,for me to tell.
I wish i could tell him what he means to me,
Is he so blind that he can not see?
Will i have the guts to tell him before i go?
What will his response be,will it be so?
No matter how much pain hes caused me,
My love eternally grows,he's given me my highs but also my lows.
Why can't someone help him to see,
He has one very important part of me
Forever and always i will love thee,
because he means so much to me.
©michelle w

[chance]

I know you did it because you thought i'd hurt less,
but i'm hurting more then ever before and now i'm a total mess.
I cried so much that i had run out of tears,
you had really gone, and brought out all my fears.
There were so many things i had to say to you,
you thought that i had said it all,but you really hadn't a clue.
I tried to stop my feelings from getting all that strong,
because it had happened once before and that had gone so wrong.
My feelings were so much stronger for you though,
now i'm in more pain then ever and just wishing it would go.
Hoping,wishing and praying that you'll get in touch,
i really don't think i'm asking of all that much.
I know you really did care for me,
there were just so many problems that i didn't want to see.
We could and we still can work them all out,
because i'm still willing to give it a go so i'll hang about.
I don't hate you for it though,i don't think i ever could,
for there were all those things i never understood.
Well in the end i think we're meant to be together.
So i'm positive we'll meet again one day,then we'll be forever.
©michelle w

[di marco]

wow chance them 2 poems were great! :)

[chance]

arrr cheers! :)

[hazey]

I havent read a poem in years,thanks for that.I enjoyed them :bow:

[Lisa321]

:-) Well done chance, Thankyou everyone i'll post more :D

[Lisa321]

Left My Body And Soul

I've left my body and soul
Was unhappy all the time
Couldn't dig myself out of that hole
Couldn't wait in line

Inside I've died
Hurt by his pain
Really I've tried
Couldn't face it again

If hurt were bruises
I'd be black and blue
Always the one who loses
Didn't know what to do

Lost in nothingness
Lost in a maze
I guess I caused this mess
Blinded by the haze

Body numb with pain
Heart beating fast
Couldn't go through it again
Knew I wouldn't last

So I ended my fight
My fight with me
I tried with all my might
Is that the light I see?

I took some pills
Swallowed them whole
Meant to be killed
Left my body and soul.

© Lisa Kymberley Dark :thumbsup:

[chance]

very good,well done!

[chance]

i'm sorry for acting like i do,
i havent any excuses not even a few.
sorry for always being selfish and always being stubborn,
its just a part of me that comes out all of a sudden.
sorry for not taking your feelings into consideration,
and i'm sorry if you think i broadcast our relationship to the nation.
i'm sorry for all the things i must have put you through,
but you must know that someone as nice as you takes some getting used to.
sorry for writing you such a sad poem but i'm trying to make you see,
that i'm sorry for everything especially for being me.
©michelle w

[Lisa321]

Awhh Chance that rocked ;)
Well don hun xox
lisa

[di marco]

lisa and chance, really enjoyed reading your poems

[Lisa321]

lisa and chance, really enjoyed reading your poems

Thankyou! :-) xox :cheer:

[.:Kitz:.]

I have to say they ROCKED!!! Well done guys, they were fab!!

[Lisa321]

It will never change...


They'll steal your heart
Make sure they destroy each and every part
Then throw it back
The wasted love it now lacks

They don't feel the pain
So they'll do it again
Each and every time your heart breaks
A bit of your love and faith they take

They say they want you
But you don't know if they do
They mess you around
Sinking you deeper down

When you're sure its the end
And you're ready to mend
And you think it's all over, Its not
They're unknowingly planning their next plot

Then later they'll leave you alone
And the feelings inside will have grown
For a while you wont want to live
Building up your love to give

And still your heart yearns with pain
And you'll never want to see his face again
But the love still lies
With all the hurt that you want to hide
Live in hope that he'll like you best
That from him and you'll forget the rest
He'll reel you in to play his games
But deep down you know, He'll never change.

© Lisa KD :wub:

[Lisa321]

[Please Don't Judge Me.]

Mixed up

Want to give up, I'd risk it all
Just for the relief, to let myself go
Its winter, I can hide it
Under my clothes it wouldn't show

A deep red mark down my arm
The sight of the blood making me scream
Dripping down my arm, I startle
So real, But only a dream

I have tried so very hard
Not to give up and be strong for you
I thought I would ruin it if I did it
Unlike you, I thought it through

I'm deprived of my writing
Didn't know how hard it would be
No-one to praise or relate to
Turning it round so the problem is me

I don't miss the cuts or sores
Believe me, I'm really trying
But I'm so close to the edge
And the tool is there, Like a cure for my crying.

I can see the tools, so evil and bad
Its tempting to give up and all
Then I think of the strong consequences
If they don't know, Alone I will fall

I don't want to drag them down with me
Sliding further into darkness
Alone and scared, Nothing to smile for
Getting lost in nothingness

I should really round this off
Like I usually do
But for me, This is not the end
And I want this poem to be true.

© LisaKD

[chance]

hi,how are you?
i'm not so good.
why must i be so god damn possesive and obsessive?
i hate him so much.
hate him enough to want him back
hate him enough to never stop thinking of him
hate him so much im still madly in love with him.
so stupid to have thought he ever really cared for me.
he was really special but i have to try to forget,
that once upon a time in my life we met,
i fell in love for the first time,
but did he?
did he ever really love me?
©michelle w

[di marco]

those poems were great again chance and lisa :)

[chance]

i like this poem in a book called 101 poems that could save your life.this particular one is by sophie hannah.

make being disapproved of your hobby.
make being dispproved of your aim.
devise new ways if scoring points
in the being disaproved of game.

let them disapprove in their dozens.
let them disapprove in their hordes.
you'll find that being disapproved of
builds character,brings rewards.

just like any form of striving.
don't be arrogant,don't coast
on your high disapproval rating.
try to be disapproved of most.

at this point.if its useful,
draw a pie chart or a graph.
show it to someone who disapproves.
when they disapprove just laugh.

count the emotions you provoke:
anger,suspision,shock.
one point for each of these and two
for every boat you rock.

feel yourself warming to your task -
you do it bloody well.
at last you've found an area
in which you can excel.

savour the thrill of risk without
the fear of getting caught.
whether they sulk or scream or pout,
enjoy your new found sport.

meanwhile all those who disapprove
while you are having fun
won't even know your game exists
so tell yourself you've won.

[Lisa321]

Thanks hun ;-)
I haven't written in a while, so i'm posting my old ones.
And I assure you they are mine. All Mineeeeeee.
Hehe. Well done Chance, you have talent.
xXx
Loadsa Luv
Lisa

[Jade]

You both have talent, can you post some more please?

[Lisa321]

I will when I have time to type them up :-) Say tomorrow or tuesday I will.
Thanks Judejude :D
xXx
Lisa

[chance]

waking up without you,
my life means nothing anymore.
you were the reason i got out of bed,
and run out that front door.
you've taken my heart,you still hold the key,
why doe's life have to be so mean to me?
hearts break,so i've found out,
you still have the power to make mine melt.
now we are both moving on,but the pain will never be gone.
for your the one and only to me,
forever in my heart you shall be.
©michelle w

[di marco]

that was great chance! :D

[Lisa321]

Ahh Chance/Michelle :-)
That was great hun.
Hope ur ok :)
xXx
Lisa

[Lisa321]

Just A Shortie ;)

Worthless...

I've been pushed down so many times
I feel this time will be the last
As I lay here fading
My thoughts are invaded by Memories of my past
I feel the shame and rejection building
As I lay here on the floor
I have no strength to get up
I'm not worth it any more

©LisaKD :wub:

[Lisa321]

Life Is Still

Frustrated Anger, Locked inside
Muffled cries, Forcing me to hide
Swirling emotions, So confused
Moody and down, Depressed and Used

Losing my words when I open my mouth
Scrambled sentences wont come out
Lost and Hurt, feeling alone
All except the voice, telling me not to moan

I fight with this voice that tells me spiteful sh*t
'You're gonna lose 'em bit by bit'
'They don't really like you, you're not their Friend
'They don't care if your hurt doesn't mend'

I even fight with this voice when I'm talking aloud
When I'm talking about my home rows
Its shouting at me, but I keep it in
Struggling to make sense, I know I can't win

You know the feeling when there nowhere to go
Even when you think ahead, It all seems so slow
Mixed up and so confused
Fighting a battle, but ready to lose

Is it confidence, Is is strength
Is that why someone once called me dense
I wouldn't take it to heart, I know it's not true.
But how damaging words are, You wouldn't have a clue

How can I take it when I feel so small
How did mummy not see her angel fall
Its gotta get better, I know it will
But for the moment, Life Stays Still.

©LisaKD:angel:

[Lisa321]

Tears and Friends

I wanted to try something different.
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Tears
When they threaten to spill over.
I don't let them,
Because then no one can see
The pain,
The Agony, you go through every day.
But if one slips out,
And they see.
They approach you,
They fuss over you,
They listen to you,
Some understand,
Some don't.
But they try to
And that's all that matters.
They help you find a solution
To all that you doubt
Help you smile and find out
You will survive,
Be strong and live long
Cos friends are for life.

©LisaKD :clap:

[di marco]

wow lisa those 3 were great! :)

[Lisa321]

wow lisa those 3 were great! :)

Di Marco :-) Hey, thankyou.
You replied quickly!
xXx

[true.moon]

My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
'Oh please God, have mercy!'
'Oh please let it end!'
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor
My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.

[Lisa321]

I'll just make it clear, That is not True.Moon's poem, (simply because she didn't say that it wasn't hers).
I love that poem though, really well written.
xXx

[di marco]

Di Marco :-) Hey, thankyou.
You replied quickly!
xXx

it wasnt that quick! i read the first 2 and replied but in that time youd posted the third one so i read that too and then edited my post to say 3 instead of 2

[chance]

My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long.
When I awake I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get just
One whipping tonight.
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
'Oh please God, have mercy!'
'Oh please let it end!'
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor
My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me.
arrr thats so sad....

[chance]

you may write me down in history
with your bitter,twisted lies,
you may trod me in the very dirt
but still,like dust,i'll rise.

does my sassiness upset you?
why are you beset with gloom?
cause i walk like i've got oil wells
pumping in my living room.

just like moons and like suns,
with the certainty of tides,
just like hopes springing high,
still i'll rise.

did you want to see me broken?
bowed head and lowered eyes?
shoulders falling down like teardrops,
weakened by my soulful crys.

does my haughtiness offend you?
don't you take it awful hard?
cause i laugh like i've got gold mines
diggin in my own back yard.

you may shoot me with your words,
you may cut me with your eyes,
you may kill me with your hatefulness,
but still,like air,i'll rise.

does my sexiness upset you?
does it come as a surprise?
that i dance like i've got diamonds
at the meeting of my thighs?

out of the huts of historys shame
i rise
up from a past thats rooted in pain
i rise
i'm a black ocean,leaping and wide,
welling and swelling i bear in the tide.

leaving behind nights of terror and fear
i rise
into a daybreak that's wonderously clear
i rise
bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
i am the dream and the hope of the slave.
i rise
i rise
i rise.

maya angelou

[Lisa321]

Thats great hun, did you write it?
xXx
°´¯`xLisax´¯`°

[chance]

no,i put at the end of it who the writer was,it came from my book of 101 poems that could save your life.

[Behemoth]

Here's a poem that I received via email and had quite an effect on me when I first read it.

I went to a party,
And remembered what you said.
You told me not to drink, Mum
So I had a sprite instead.
I felt proud of myself, mum
The way you said I would,
That I didn't drink and drive,
Though some friends said I should.
I made a healthy choice,
And your advice to me was right,
The party finally ended,
And the kids drove out of sight.
I got into my car,
Sure to get home in one piece,
I never knew what was coming, Mum
Something I expected least.
Now I'm lying on the pavement,
And I hear the policeman say,
"The kid that caused this wreck was drunk",
Mum, his voice seems far away.
My own blood's all around me,
As I try hard not to cry.
I can hear the paramedic say,
"This girl is going to die".
I'm sure the guy had no idea,
While he was flying high,
Because he chose to drink and drive,
Now I would have to die.
So why do people do it, Mum
Knowing that it ruins lives?
And now the pain is cutting me,
Like a hundred stabbing knives.
Tell sister not to be afraid, Mum
Tell daddy to be brave,
And when I go to heaven,
Put 'Daddy's Girl' on my grave.
Someone should have taught him,
That it's wrong to drink and drive.
Maybe if his parents had,
I'd still be alive.
My breath is getting shorter,
Mum, I'm getting really scared.
These are my final moments,
And I'm so unprepared.
I wish that you could hold me Mum,
As I lie here and die.
I wish that I could say, "I love you, Mum!"
So I love you and good-bye.

[di marco]

some of these poems are so sad, im almost crying!

[chance]

arrr thats so sad,do you know who wrote it?

[Jade]

I've had it by e-mail as well, I dont think the author was mentioned

[Behemoth]

No sorry I don't. It's really sad isn't it. I don't usually get affected by things that I read but this really got to me.

[true.moon]

lisa your right i didnt write it i got sent it in an email for nspcc

[chance]

You were so beautiful,
With your boyish good look charms,
And I couldn't believe you were dying,
As I cradled you in my arms.

You see, you were ya Dad's Lad,
And could never have been denied,
And we were going to ride into my sunset,
Lifelong partners, side by side.

But things in life don't,
Always work out quite to plan,
And some cancers won't be beat,
even with the medicine man.

There can't be a love that is stronger,
Than the one I feel for you,
And I would have done just anything,
To stop the pain that you were going through.

And as it got near the end,
Your fight started to wane,
And you sweated profusely,
I guess I thought it was the pain.

But the nurse put her arm around me,
And said with her heart open wide,
"He wants you to let him know,
It's Okay to go for the ride".

Now that was the hardest speech,
And the words got stuck in my head,
But they slowly and painfully came out,
As quietly I said;

"You've made me so happy,
And it's felt good to be alive,
But it's time for you to leave this earth,
Just let me know when you arrive".

Now today is your birthday,
It's three long years since you've gone,
And how come the pain of missing you,
Is alive and still going strong ?

I've never felt so alone,
Now I've lost you and the wife,
I considered not going on,
I considered taking my life.

But as I stared at your photo,
It fell straight to the ground,
And then I knew you'd never left,
you were still hanging around.

You see, you were ya Dad's Lad,
And could never have been denied,
And we are going to ride into my sunset,
Lifelong partners, side by side.



Copyright Allen Jesson 2000

[true.moon]

thats really sweet :heart:

[true.moon]

and sad :crying: :crying: :crying: :crying:

[chance]

Tears are falling from my eyes,
as I sit and cry at night.
blood is dripping from my heart,
as I try to write.

I have so much pain,
I'm hurt a lot,
I can't explain all this,
I'm just falling apart.

no one understands,
I don't know where to start
and I don't know where to end.

love hurts so much,
like a thousand stabbing knives,
especially when you have all this pain,
that you wish you could deny.

I'm so sore right now,
my heart is racing fast,
I wish I could forget all this,
and leave it in the past.

but there will always be a memory,
a memory of us both,
how we both loved each other,
and in my heart I'll hold.

I will always hold this memory
even though you won't care,
and the scar you left in my heart
will always be there.

[Behemoth]

Inkeeping with the sad theme that we seem to have going, here are the lyrics from 'My Last Breath' by Evanescence. The song is basically about a man/woman who is dying in their partners arms. It is spoken from the point of view of the dying person.

hold on to me love
you know i can't stay long
all i wanted to say was i love you and i'm not afraid
can you hear me?
can you feel me in your arms?

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

i'll miss the winter
a world of fragile things
look for me in the white forest
hiding in a hollow tree (come find me)
i know you hear me
i can taste it in your tears

holding my last breath
safe inside myself
are all my thoughts of you
sweet raptured light it ends here tonight

closing your eyes to disappear
you pray your dreams will leave you here
but still you wake and know the truth
no one's there

say goodnight
don't be afraid
calling me calling me as you fade to black

[Jade]

The Soldier
Rupert Brooke
If I should die, think only this of me:
That there's some corner of a foreign field
That is forever England. There shall be
In that rich earth a richer dust concealed;
A dust whom England bore, shaped, made aware,
Gave, once, her flowers to love, her ways to roam;
A body of England's, breathing English air,
Washed by the rivers, blest by suns of home.
And think, this heart, all evil shed away,
A pulse in the eternal mind, no less
Gives somewhere back the thoughts by England given;
Her sights and sounds; dreams happy as her day;
And laughter, learnt of friends; and gentleness,
In hearts at peace, under an English heaven.


Bit of a strange one, very famous, but I like it

[Jade]

The Kiss

I hoped that he would love me,
And he has kissed my mouth,
But I am like a stricken bird
That cannot reach the south.

For though I know he loves me,
To-night my heart is sad;
His kiss was not so wonderful
As all the dreams I had.


Sarah Teasdale

[Jade]

Loved Ones - 9/11
© By Sarah D. Evertsen

The rain hits the sidewalk
and splashes into waves
as I run home,
my mind in a daze.
I try to recall
those last few hours,
but as I look back,
I see no towers.
There's ash and fire,
no one can see
and people burdened
without any company.
The day was cold
yet the weather nice
we hoped all those terrorists
would pay a heavy price.
They put a knife in our hearts;
a fire in our souls
and still all the citizens
did their parts.
We hear God Bless America,
and, Let Freedom Ring
we think about the comfort
those words bring.
In the shadows of the night
We hear our loved ones call,
Please come back and help us all

[chance]

I open my eyes
I take my last breath
Surrounded by unfamiliar faces
I try to scream
But nothing comes out
I’m sick of this life
I just want to die
Nothing’s going right anymore
It’s all the same lies
All the fake smiles and “hellos”.

Seems like a dream
Like I’m living in this land
Of false hopes and dreams
No on understands why
Why I’m this way
They all think I just want pity and attention
And they all act like I’m an outsider
They all see me as separate from the crowd
And they all treat me like that too.

How can they be so fake?
How can they act so better than me?
(when they’re not)
Its like I’m behind a one way mirror
And even though I can see
And hear everyone else
Its as if no one can see or hear me
And when I try to speak
The words,
They never seem to come out
And no one even bothers to listen.

ITS BULL ****!!!

I’m so sick of it all
Why can’t things just be like they used to?
So simple and everything seemed to fit.

But now things are so
Complex and nothing
Seems to fit
It all just seems so difficult.

My vision is blurred
I just can’t take it anymore.
I’m breaking down
I want to run away from this life
I don’t want to face tomorrow
I just wish that
Tomorrow would never come for me
I feel so out of place
Like I just don’t belong
And no one understands me
Not that anyone would
Because you don’t know
What its like
To be
Me

As I lay here now
In this pine box
I see everyone I have ever met
And they’re all looking down on me,
Like they always did.

Now that they’ve got their way
And I’m laying here dead
About to go six feet under,
They begin to cry and console one another
And I wonder…
Do they really care?
Was I wrong all along?
Was I really not an outsider?
Did I really have to end my life?
And then, as they depart,
It all goes back to the way it was
Before I took…
My Last Breath.


© Chrissy, 2005-04-24

[chance]

Life can be taken
In a blink of an eye
You're breathing the minute
Right before you die

It could turn so fast
You just never know
Any day, any place
When it's your time to go

Can happen within seconds
Safe or unexpected
Anywhere is possible
Even sheltered and protected

No chance to cry
Not even to think
In that very moment
You're on the brink

Soon as you take
Your very last breath
A new life is born
As a result of your death

Can't live in fear
But just think about it
Maybe your unknown destiny
Is that your life has a limit
© Jes, 2005-04-20

[Lisa321]

An Unwinding Path

Like an unwinding path
It never ends
Not a thought for the aftermath
Or whats round the bend

I don't like to reveal all
Hide away and hurt so bad
I don't like to feel so small
Threw away the love I once had

I don't like to see you cry
I don't like to lie to you
To see that look in your eye
These things I try not to do

Falling through open space
Down and down falling fast
I know I can't keep up with this pace
Frightful shadows are overcast

So Im sorry, Please forget
The lies and tearful cries
And the rows and upsets
Everything will be ok, I'll try

If im dreaming, wake me now
Help me pass the test
Lead me they way, Show me how
To be at my total best

©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

You can probably guess what this is about, just don't judge :)

The Drug

It feels like a cure for your pain
Each time you do it again
It doesn't help but makes you feel relieved
Helps you gain control and breathe

You know it's wrong but feel the need
You feel the need to cut and bleed
If all the people put together what they'd bled
About half of them would be gone and dead

I don't want to be one of them anymore
I want to show people how to soar
To rise above the deep depression
Stop the hurt, pain and aggression

It works like a painkiller, It cures
But also like a drug, It lures
Don't fool yourself with what you believed
Don't hide, Face it you were deceived

It doesn't help in the long run does it?
Nothing stops you from wanting more slits
You need to learn to calm this
You may not know but you'd be missed

I know you can't just stop straight away
But please, just leave the knife where it lays
Anything you want or need, we're here
Don't bottle it up, feel free to drop a tear

Keep it real and slow it down
If you drop a tear we'll be around
Stay strong and protect your skin
Please for us, don't give in...

©LisaKD

[di marco]

those 2 poems were really good :)

[Lisa321]

Nearly unnoticed


She is lonely
Even though you can't tell
She is reaching out
For what, she doesn't know
She will continue to sit in silence
And hope that someone may stumble across
Her and all of her emptiness
But they only hope that they do it in time
Otherwise she will have drifted too far
And she may let go
Of whatever view of the world she has
As she slowly fades out of the lives of everyone
Nearly unnoticed
©LisaKD

[di marco]

:)

[Lisa321]

let me be

My heart is black and blue
From all the abuse you put me through
No more abuse, no more pain
I am no longer your game
Now I am free
Free from all the pain you have caused me
Now move on
And let me be
©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

voices

When it starts again, I can't help but hear
I'l cry myself to sleep tonight
Muffling it with my pillow
Holding it tight

They won't shut up
I feel sick inside
Breaking down
Under my covers I hide

One moment im happy
The next i'm sad
But I just can't figure out
What makes my life so bad

What makes tears well up
When I close my eyes
Why I smile to my parents
And it's just a disguise

I don't understand
Even though I try to make sense
Do you hear me now
Is it just me or is the atmosphere tense?

Why should I move,
I want a choice
Whats the point of me being here
If I have no voice?
©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

back at square 1


So fazed and blank
Confusion racing through me
What am I afraid of?
Is it that I don't want them to see?

I don't want to talk
it's not a big deal
I can't find my feet
Don't know whats real

Sometimes I sit and cry
At what I've left behind
Don't know where to start, don't understand
How to begin again, words I can't find

No-one understands, i'm lost myself
Tears fill my eyes spill out in frustration
Full swing at the wall
Over again with no hestitation

Nothing goes right these days
I never know what to do
I need advice, a helping hand
From someone who has a clue

A sea of thoughts all in my head
Sometimes its too much to hold
A broken puzzle spread over the floor
A suicide letter yet to unfold

Fed up and back to where I started
Lost, alone and confused
Fighting a battle inside
Which i always seem to lose

When will the lies finally unravel
And the mask comes undone
And when will I truly know
That I'm back at square one?

©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

the broken me

Heavy Crimson Tears
Dripping down
Spilling over and out
Going round and round

It never ends
A circle of pain
Hidden from others
Over and over again

Will you pick me up
When i'm down on the floor
Messed up and broken
Can't take anymore

Thankyou, because you're there
Sorry, because I lean on you
You know it helps
When your the one I look to

The red in my tears
Symbolises the blood
The hurt, pain and upset
Thoughts I wouldn't love

So when the Crimson Tears
Finally dry up you see
Scars and stains they will leave
But I will no longer be, The Broken Me

©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

spell it out


Why can't you explain it to me
What have I done
Why all the confusion
You ruined all my fun

Made me shake
Made me cry
Made me worried
Everything I tried

Tried to talk you out of it
Wasn't the right thing to do
Hurt me and threw it all away
And that comes down to you

Then you rang crying
Calling from your shed!
You apologised and now its fine
Told me to forget what you said

Then why did you say it
Nearly killed me
Cos I care loads
Why can't you see?

My skin and heart
Are filled with pain too
It won't go away
Whatever I do

Now I guess its over
Its all sorted and fine
But I still don't know what I did wrong
Why should it take time?

Sorry does me something
To me it does anyway
You've said it, Ive accepted
I'm never gonna go away

©LisaKD

[di marco]

great! :)

[Lisa321]

Thankyou everyone who has commented on the past poems. :-)
Especially Di Marco :D Thanks hun :-)
xXx

[di marco]

thanks ok lisa, i enjoy reading them. will you be posting more soon?

[Lisa321]

without you

When will things fall into place
When will I learn to win the race
To stop this hurt, without the cuts
Be happy, When the only way is up

Shivering with pain, shaking violently
Poisonous thoughts, not helping me
Mind games, Can't think straight
I can't find my reason, Don't want to wait

Imagine a face in your head
Pale and lost may as well be dead
Look into her eyes what do you see
Do you see the fears that haunt me?

The fears that haunt me deep inside
Scares and worries I want to hide
To run to the rainbows and the sunny skies
Forget and erase everything, no longer cry

The fallen tears with hints of blue
The scars and hurt I show only you
A tear stained pillow to wipe my eyes
An old teddy to hug as I cry

A broken smile, sometimes fake
Holding it in, all I can take
When things get bad I hurt more
Pain in me til I can't get up of the floor

Have to be secret, No-one must know
I can cope, My load in tow
But I don't see why I hurt or fall
But I do know that I have no reason to at all

I shouldn't hurt, fall or cry
I should stop this now, I have to try
Try to turn this around
Smile and not be down

Now picture my face and see the smile
The real one you haven't seen in a while
My eyes a bright deep blue
A I know I couldn't of got through it, Without You

©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

This one, is one of my faves. :)

lost


I'm so lost, frighted and afraid
Feeling out of place, alone and mislaid
Split in two, broken and hurt from the lies
Strong to be Strong, not to just cry

I've never felt so wanted and accepted
But somehow I feel distanced, not wanted, rejected
I don't know what it is, what to do
If I tell you that, please don't think its you

Theres one person I'm worried about
keeps it all inside, fills me with doubt
Stuck here, I need to talk to her now
She has her own load so I'm not sure how

How to approach her, What to say
What if I mess it up and she doesn't want to stay
All the worries that fill my head
Such an overload I should be dead

What he's done, You can't forgive him
Pulled you out so deep where you can't swim
Please be strong, I'm crying within
The ice that I'm skating on is getting so thin

Screaming out, crying and yelling
So trapped up inside I feel like rebelling
Lashing out, I remember when I did that before
But If I do it again I wouldn't be able to cope anymore

Lost in this world, can't find my place
Wishing for someone to come and help me to face
To ease off this mask and reveal the new me
I know I'll hate it but I hope it'll be better you'll see

I hate me because of my hurting pain
So I think Its me and hurt me again
Its myself, I'm so horrible to me
My poisonous thoughts wont let me be

If I'm breaking Its because of me,
I'm destroying myself
When I'm broken and not working, Shove me back on the shelf
Not wanted, used and thrown out
There Ive said it, Thats what I'm about!!

©LisaKD

[Lisa321]

Yes I will :-) They are all on another site. So i'm copying them off there for you all to read :D

xXx

[Lisa321]

This is a happy one :-) Makes me smile :)

the ones

The shy, pretty one
Smiling in the light
The peacemaker
Who hates anyone to fight

The funny, dorky one
Uncontrollable Laughs with her
Crybaby but sweet in a way
Like a medicine cure

The weird but caring one
Safety conscious and long hair
Laughs at the strangest things
Up for any dare

The quiet, ignorant one
With no voice at all
My best friend for so many years
She never saw me fall

The down and in love one
I'd do anything for her
One of my best friends
From hurting I try to deter

The understanding, always there one
Pretty with a golden heart
Always laughing, shes been brilliant
With what shes done, From the start

The artistic, indescribable one
Who I think knows me the best
Always cares, Always knows
Whats wrong in just one guess

I may value 3 of them more
But I'll never neglect the rest
Their original qualities
Which make them all the best :-)

©Lisa KD

[di marco]

wow they were great as usual! :) especially the last one, it was really nice

[di marco]

Yes I will :-) They are all on another site. So i'm copying them off there for you all to read :D

xXx

what other site are they on?

[Lisa321]

Hmm. Im not sure if i should put it on here...
Neway I can email you ..?
xxx


Edited:
No, I no :) Meet me on chat sometime, i'll keep the window up.
xxx

[.:SpIcYsPy:.]

I never read poems!! But I like the emotional ones :D Not really romantic ones lol

[horseygal90]

Here's my fave one I've written, it's not quite right at the minute though.


A broken Kiss

A broken Kiss is always fragmented,
Often lost yet never lamented.
It moves through the world with bitter fury,
Incarcerating what could and what maybe.
Twisting the truth and breaking the lies,
It knows the knowledge of a thousand sighs.
It seeks to burrow beneath the ground;
To hide its head and ne’er be found.
Yet it continues in its desperate plight,
Running across morning, noon and night.
A broken kiss is never lamented,
Often lost and always fragmented.

[di marco]

wow horsey thats well good! :)

[horseygal90]

Thanks.... It still needs some tweaking though. :rolleyes:

Lost is really cool! I like!

[Lisa321]

Why

I cant force you to care
I cant make you see
I cant ask you for help
To sort out me

I cant take this anymore
This is just how i feel
So confused and rejected
Cant distinguish whats real

Things have all changed
Been twirled upside down
Dont understand any of it
You dont want me around

I cant open up
I just want to hide
Want to leave this world
But knowing ive tried

because im lost inside
lost and broken
cant make any sense
Of words that are spoken

Banging my head against the wall
I sink down it in despair
Blocking it all out, screaming inside
Beginning not to care

Control takes over me
Falling further into the unknown
I can't stop im losing all hope
And once again, im alone

And of course, once again
I have the tools in my hand
Tears streeming and now bleeding
Why, not even I can understand

[di marco]

yay your poems are back! was great! :)

[Lisa321]

:-) Thankyou Di Marco, theyre not really back :-D
I dont come on here much Ill post when I can
Thankyou :0 Appreciated ;)

[Lisa321]

I just wnat to sya that Chance i think it was, i love the hurting letter. truly beautiful. :) Well done if its yours.
And everyone else thanks because i enjoyed reading them and theyre all fantastic.
xox
Love, Lisa

[Lisa321]

The Real You

Lying in a pool of blood
Can't shout or scream
So satisfied, deep inside
So real, but its just a dream

In reality you are depressed
a nothing, with no love to give
if I asked you, you would know
Nothing, no will to live

Inside you feel the pain
Cutting and splitting you
Into two different people
You, and I don't know who

2 different emotions
2 different places
2 different fronts
In two lost faces

But there's only one real you
And those close will know
Who that is, Deep deep down
They don't want that you to go

Throw the masks away
And let your emotions flow
It should feel better than the blood
let it all out, let it go

Don't cry for anyone else
Please be strong
Stop these tears and smile
Please hold on

Forget the fake smiles
But not the friends
Tell them you're ok
That it will soon end

©Lisa KD

[Lisa321]

Sorry if some are repeats, il try not to.
x

[CrazyLea]

wow thats a well good poem.

[Lisa321]

Thankyou CrazyLea :)

[Chloe O'brien]

National Poetry Day 6 October

Pushing forty


Just before winter
we see the trees show
their true colours:
the mad yellow of chestnuts
two maples like blood sisters
the orange beech
braver than lipstick

Pushing forty, we vow
that when the time comes
rather than wither
ladylike and white
we will henna our hair
like Colette, we too
will be gold and red
and go out


Alison Fell

From Dreams, like heretics: new and selected poems
Serpent's Tail, 1997

[samantha nixon]

ive just read all of the poems on here and they are all good and lisa youe ones are fantastic

[Abi]

Just a random, unamed poem, based on some stuff that's happened to be recently....

You're everything i wanted
my earth, my sky, my life
i thought i knew you
i thought i could love you
and i thought you felt the same.

how could you do that?
take your life, like it nothing
like i'm nothing
you've had your problems
but none of it was you

we tried to help you
i tried to save you
wouldn't you have done the same?
i loved you, baby
so how could you be so selfish

what she did wasn't cause of you
just a crazy part of her mixed up world
you didn't have to blame yourself
you didn't have to die for it
i loved you, baby, but since you've gone away
i've hated you.

[samantha nixon]

ahhhh that is really good abi have you wrote any more

[Abi]

i just randomly write them about whatever. i find poems easy to write. I might do another one in a sec (that one took 5 minutes literally :D )

[samantha nixon]

ok then look forward to reading it

[Lisa321]

Aw guys its nice to see you carrying the thread along =] theyre lovely.

[Cornishbabe]

All the poems on here are great!