Part Two
While we are free to choose, once we have made those choices, we are tied to the consequences of those choices
~ Russell M. Nelson ~
Jake sat alone in the deserted park, leaning against an old and worn oak tree, he’d kicked off his shoes and allowed himself to feel the freedom of the fresh air and his un-claustrophobic surroundings
His thoughts drifted back to the shadow in his life right now, the shadow that ate away his thoughts and clouded his dreams, the shadow that changed his life, Chrissie Watts
He’d been gone nearly a week and even he’d been unprepared for the feelings of lost and emptiness that washed over him. He had chosen Danny over her and now he had to live with the consequences
As he shut his eyes the endless sleepless nights were catching up with him, yet even now he didn’t sleep, he couldn’t.
After months of slowly breaking down Chrissie’s defences he finally got what he wanted and now as he sat here he’d give anything to go back, he’d give up everything just so he could return to the life he’d left behind, to life he could have had with her
Opening his eyes he watched the icy wind scoop up the fallen leaves into the air, he carried on watching them disappear into the sky and he wished he could follow them and just float away, no cares, no worries, just the feeling of being free and maybe just maybe he could get back all he lost
Glancing down at his feet, he needed to feel freedom again, he wasn’t a keeper or a nurse to his brother yet why was he still defending him and picking him up when he lost control, what about being selfish for once and living a life that he wanted instead of one he felt duty bound to live
He was tied to Danny, his brother and he was tied to a life of nothing, he was hanging on to everything by a thread, his job if you could call it that, their home it wasn’t much but it had a roof and he could lose it all because Danny couldn’t put down the bottle or take the needle from his vein, nothing could control Danny not even his own brother not anymore, he’d lost him for good
Getting up he wandered across the park and he knew he couldn’t live like this anymore but he had made a choice and as usual his choice had consequences, consequences for Danny, for himself, for his family and for Chrissie