Went to the doctor's two weeks ago and have been issued with anti - depressants, which also help my anxiety as i'm refusing to take the tablet's the doctor gave me my tablets for my anxiety. I know they're going to take a couple of week's to help etc.. but oh i am so stressed it's unbelivable, It's my brother's birthday today and he's holding a party, my mum and dad's going to visit my gran who just came up from wales yesterday to get out the house, and i'm to supervise them which was fine with me cause i was going to invite my best mate, but her boyfriend's coming over later than originally planned as her foster sister went in for her weekly chemo and is having to have a blood transfusion so they won't get back till 8 instead of the back of four. She has to speak to him about stuff cause in my eye's now he's taking the absolute piss out of her cause he's freaking out over everything, It's a long story and i don't want to get into it cause it's not mines to tell but it's stressing me out, i want a hug from her cause she's the only one who know's what i'm going through cause she's going through the same thing. I just feel so alone now and everything, going to have a few drinks once the parent's are back from my gran's but i just don't want to suppervise a bunch of 15/16 year old's. Just going to have to get on with it through.
Essay or what! I will probably be around a lot more though now. I'm also trying to sort my head out also